Vauseman One-Shots

Even If You're With Him Now

You unjustly are asking me to forget you
To just turn around and leave you forever

"What do you mean Piper? You want me to just forget you? You know I can't do that." Whispered Alex into her phone.

"You have to. We both have to move on. We can't continue like this." Piper said in a rapid but hurt tone.

"Why not? Atleast give me a reason." Alex begged. She never begged. Only she could do this to her.

You're saying he doesn't deserve this punishment
That it's now his fault your love chose me
Or that I don't want to lose you

"Because it's not fair to him Alex." Piper murmured into the phone.

"Not fair to him?! Are you fucking kidding me?" Alex felt wounded by her words. Fair to him? What about her?

"Yes. It's not fair that my heart chose you. It really isn't." Piper didn't care how stupid it sounded.

"I can't lose you Pipes." Alex breathed into the phone, somewhat calmer.

"And that's not his fault either. That's why I can't hurt him like this." Piper felt tears start to sting in her eyes.

Please listen to your heart, I beg you
You probably just didn't want to hurt him
And you're telling him lies about us

"Please Piper. For once, listen to what your heart is telling you. Listen to what it wants. I know you don't want to hurt him but do you want to hurt me?" Alex questioned.

"You're right. I don't want to hurt him. Which is why I'm doing this." Piper completely avoided her last question.

What you don't know is that just by looking at us
It's so easy to notice that we're dyeing for each other
And may God forgive me but I won't resign

"Don't ignore my question. And your little routine won't last long." Alex said somewhat bitterly.

"What routine?" Piper questioned curiously.

"The one where you play the part of the nice white lady who is settling down." Alex spat.

"It's not a routine." Piper sounded more like she was trying to convince herself than the other girl. "And even if it was, what makes you so sure?"

"It's obvious when you see us. We look for each other even when we know that we're far apart. We crave each other's company. It's obvious. To everyone. To him. He just won't admit it. And may god forgive me but it's not going to stay like this. Listen to what I'm about to tell you." Alex said, taking Pipers silence as a confirmation.

I will love you even if you're not by my side
And you don't want to hear me

"I'm going to love you no matter where you try and hide from me. I won't stop trying to contact you to try and hear your voice. I'm not going to stop trying to convince you."

Even if you tell me you've changed
And that I need to forget you

"I don't care what you tell me. I don't care if you decide to tell me you're suddenly straight because you and I both know that that would be complete bullshit. I don't care how many times you tell me to forget you. It's not going to happen, I'm telling you that right now.

I'll keep searching for you
I'll be your unconditional

"I'll search until the end of time for you. You know damn well I have the resources to do it. I'm your world. I know this because you are mine. Because I know that everything you told me while we made love, yes made love not had sex, was real and not some dirty talk."

I will love you because I'm still in love with you
And I swore to be faithful

"No matter how much time passes I will still be in love with you. I once swore to you that I would never be with anyone else. That I would wait for you. That I would be here and ready for you when you decided to come back to me. And I'm telling you now that I'm still going to keep that promise. I'm not giving you up so easily Piper."

Because you have to admit
That you love me too

"Just admit it already. You still love me. You still want me. You still need me. Just like I need you to be alive." Alex waited for a reply but she just heard small sobs and hiccups coming from the phone. She waited patiently for her, waiting for Piper to give some sort of truth to what she was saying. Even though she really didn't need the validation, she felt as if the other girl did need it.

Because you're thinking of me
Even while you're with him

"I know that even though you're with him, you're thinking of me. Everytime he kisses you, everytime he lays a hand on you, everytime he walks up behind you and hugs you, even if it's the briefest of moments you're imagining and wishing it was me. You need me. Like I need you." Alex concluded.

"I know I do. Which is why I have to get away. Because you'll be the death of me. Because I love you to much. Because if something where to happen and I lost you I would go insane. So I rather let go before I'm in too deep. I love you." A heart breaking sob was heard as the line went dead.

"I love you too....." Alex replied into the phone, knowing Piper wouldn't hear her reply but felt the need to say it anyway. "And I'll wait as long as you need." She put her phone down, staring at the wall, letting tears finally stream down her face.