Greys Anatomy, Station 19 And Private Practice One Shots

I'm going to fight for us even though you didnt

The cries of a baby wake me from my peaceful sleep. Groggily I get out of bed and make my way towards the crib where my newborn sleeps. I mutter reassuring phrases towards the crying infant as I pick her up. I spend a few minutes trying to settle the baby but after my attempts fail I yell out to Alex to help me settle her.
That's when I realise my mistake I'm not with Alex anymore I'm with Link. Link's my partner. I'm gonna be raising a baby with Link the guy who I never really wanted to be with, the guy who was there for me when Alex left me, the guy who I have only ever seen as a friend or a rebound, the guy who I'm slowly beginning to hate because he's not him. He's not Alex and he doesn't treat me anywhere near as good as Alex ever would have...

Suddenly my daydreaming is interrupted by the the unsettling ringtone of my phone. I jump out of bed and reach the over to grab my phone that is currently sitting on the bedside table. I grab my phone and see that Mer is the one calling me.

'Thank god' I say to Mer as I accept the phone call 'I thought you weren't going to call me back'.

'Well you kind of left me curious when all you texted me was Hey Mer call me back when you get a chance I need to talk to you.' She responds

'Yeah sorry about that' I say feeling a bit guilty 'I just- can we catch up I have something I need to talk to you about.'

'It's all good I was just worried that's all.' Mer says back 'I'm about to head into the hospital so how about we meet up after my first surgery?'

'Sounds good Mer, see ya then' I say, anxious for the impending conversation.

I hear Mer saying goodbye to me as I hit the hang up button and start getting reading for work.

It's a few hours later when I walk into the attendings lounge and see Mer already sitting down and waiting for me. We say our hello's but I can't hold it in any longer.

'I think I'm pregnant Mer' I blurt out in a worried tone

Mer starts to say something along the lines of congratulations but then picks up on my worried tone. She asks me all the questions like if I've taken a test and how far along I think I am and then she says ' I'll be back in a minute, okay?' and walks out of the room.

The next few minutes before Mer returns I can't escape my thoughts. I think about having to raise a baby with Link and how I really don't want to and about how much I wish this possible baby would be Alex's instead of Links and about how I wish that Alex had never sent that freaking letter in the first place and that he was just at home waiting for me right now.

Mer walks back into the lounge carrying the various supplies needed for a blood test. As she takes her seat and begins getting the supplies ready, I say 'Well let's get this over and done with then.'

'You look and just tell me the results' I say to Mer as she pulls me into the closest storage closet a few hours later in attempt to get a little privacy whilst delivery the results.

'Ok then' she replies 'HCG level is 0 your not pregnant'

'It's bad that I'm happy that I'm not pregnant isn't it Mer' I say in a panic.

'It's not Jo, It's just- just that your not ready for another baby right now' Mer says in an attempt to calm me down before I work myself up to a full blown panic attack.

'I am though, I want another baby Meredith.' I say through sobs 'Luna is amazing and I love her so much. It's just that I don't want a baby with Link. I want one with- with um with...'

'With Alex' Meredith interrupts

'Yeah' I reply ' I know he left me almost 3 years ago but I just- I love him so much and I still think that he's the love of my life but- but he didn't fight for me, for us. He just left. And I am so mad because Izzie gets everything that I have ever wanted, she took everything from me. She took Alex and in the process she took my future, my future with him, our kids, our life, hell she even took the freaking dog that we might have gotten.'

'Do you still want him though' Meredith asks, getting a nod of my head in respond to her question 'then fight for him, fight for your future, fight for those future kids, hell fight for Luna so that she can grow up with Alex as a dad, fight for him even though he didn't fight for you.' she concludes.

'Your right I do still want him and I want him to be Luna's dad and to be my husband again, so I'm going to fight for him like I should have when he first sent that god damn letter.' I say in response.

'Then go, go to Kansas and tell him this and don't let him go without a fight' Mer says.

'But I don't even have a flight, and Luna...' I argue.

'Go, head to the airport, I'll book you the earliest flight and then after my shift I'll pick Luna up from daycare and she can stay at my place for a few nights and have some fun with Aunty Mer'. Mer argues back

'O-Okay' I say hesitantly as I grab my bag out of my locker and start walking towards the door. As I reach for the door handle I turn around and thank Meredith. And then I'm on my way to the middle of freaking nowhere Kansas.

The air feels heavy as I walk towards the house placed in the middle of this stupid farm in Kansas.

As I reach the door I take a few deep breaths to calm my nerves. I steady myself and then I knock on the door. I hear a familiar voice yell out coming and then a few seconds later the door flings open and I see him, I see Alex.

For a few seconds I just stand there taking him in. He looks older, he definitely has a few more grey hairs and maybe some more wrinkles but nothing drastic

'I thought I was pregnant this morning' I say 'and well even though it was just a scare it scared the hell out of me. Not because I don't want a baby, I love Luna so much and I want a hundred more kids, but because the idea of raising a baby without you scared the hell out of. So I'm here at your doorstep on a farm in the middle of freaking nowhere Kansas and I'm going to fight for us, even though you didn't.'