⚠ Warning: Triggering content ahead ⚠
Yuna's POV
I feel like disappearing somewhere, and not coming back....
My phone kept ringing since yesterday, I got a call from Jimin today as well. It has become a ritual after I locked myself in my room. I have lost the count of days in this dark room, sunlight peeking through the curtains as they flutter under the fan. Oppa came by knocking on my door going back empty handed, again. Jimin tried persuading me to leave my room but I didn't budge. Even Taehyung came by, though he didn't utter a word, I could feel his presence. I felt sorry for all of them, I'm not worth these efforts.
Ara and Jungkook came by today, they were out of town. They left everything and flew back after knowing I had locked myself up in my room.
"Sis why are you doing this to yourself!" Ara cried, motivating me to come out of my hideout.
"I can't sis, let me be alone for a while. I have to know my worth, before taking any step" I yelled trying to hold back my tears which never stopped.
"You are precious sis, ask us your worth!" she argued
"Don't be like this Yuna! We love you" Jungkook sobbed
"I-- just give me some time, I'll be out by tomorrow. I won't disappoint you all" I replied as they hummed in response, leaving later.
I sighed pulling my knees to my chest, burying my head in between. The cuts on my wrists became more evident, some were still fresh. I don't want others to see me this vulnerable, so I hid myself in here.
Knock knock-knock-knock
Knock knock-knock-knockIt was Jimin again! Isn't he tired of me?
"I know it's you. Leave me alone" I sobbed.
"I can't, you know" he replied in his ever so soft voice, it hurts. He has been nothing but sweet to me all this while and I'm being so mean to him.
"Just go, I'll be out of this room tomorrow morning!" I replied.
"You promise?" he asked.
"Yes!"
"I trust you" he said. I know he was trying to encourage me.
I can't keep deceiving you, but I don't trust myself anymore.
I don't deserve you, Jimin....
"I love you" he said, leaving with a click of the door.
"I love you too Jimin" I whispered as sleep took over me.
Flashback to the school rooftop: (Ref: Chap 21)
Why am I getting this treatment? I did nothing bad to deserve this! Am I not allowed to love someone? Am I that pathetic? Can't I be loved, ever?
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