Give Me Love

★Chapter 9☆

  Cilia POV🍯🍯🥺

       You know that feeling you get after having a fun day and realizing how much of self centered person you are, well if you have not don't wish for it the feeling is horrible. It's 1:37 am and am just lying face up looking at the celling and thinking about the project with Anna the more I think of it the more memory of it come back, during the two year I have known her I have really treated badly like she's invisible to me, I have just been too stock up in my head my horrible mind.

   I look beside me  at the Android that is facing her side already shut down for the day, she have force her way into my life and made me start having this feelings. I Hate It.

  I stand up from my bed grabbing my phone and my little purse filled with weed and a lighter I open my room window and climb up to the roof using the pipes as leader. When I finally get up I just sat, open my purse and took my stuff out.

   I need to refill it looks like I will have to pay what his name a visit on Friday. For hours I just lay on the roof looking at the stars I don't why am like this why I always feel this way like am empty or to heavy that feeling like you are sollowing your heart and you throat and chest hurts and you just want to cry but tears isn't coming out.

    I have always felt this way ever since I was little I know I shouldn't feel this way but I just do, I was never the joyful child just quite and keep to her self child, unusual as a child I was bulied a lot I just couldn't fit in, unless with my brother we were really close then he always help me when I was bullied until I was 13 and got tired of it, I took self defense classes and beat the fuck up of anyone who tried to bully me.

  That how me and my brother drifted with me no longer needing him for protection he didn't need to be around me always, he tried getting us to still do things like watching movie going out for games or just talking but it just didn't work, don't get me wrong I did try too a lot but with Kelly always tagging along it just wasn't the same.

  I got down when it was 4am I needed at least few hours of sleep to function today in school and not to mention work. I just get on the bed and lay face down immediately dosing off.

  "your eyes is red didn't you sleep last night" my mom ask me as I sit down for breakfast.

  "Yeah didn't sleep well.   "maybe still getting use to a roommate"  I said looking towards Betty as she finish her food.

  "So how was shopping yesterday"  Mick asked full of excitement as he grab the Honey beside me.

  "It was was great I got this amazing dress that would made head turns.

  "You can make head turn without a dress"  my mom said "so Cecilia did you buy yourself a dress"

  "No" I simply reply ending my voice in this conversation.

  "But she did buy this blue matching crop top with Cari it have a white bear in the middle"

"Really" my brother ask.

"She did"  my mom ask.

"Wow thank you I am just as shock as you are" I said in a bored tone.

   After a long breakfast with my family which was only 9 minutes I finally took my bag and walk out of the door towards my car which Bett was already in trying out the driver sit, trying because I will never let her drive my baby again.

"Lia wait"  my brother call me before I could get half way.

"Yes?"

"Hmmm thank you" he said.

"For what?"

"Yesterday inviting Cari she couldn't stop talking about it last night"he reply.

"shouldn't that be annoying?"