It has been a couple days since my fourteenth birthday and I still have not heard from my father. I see him from time to time each moment I glance still no words leave his mouth. It pains me to think about the neglect of my father over the years - It's hard on me. I never get to leave the palace so I have no friends, just the maids and Richard. "Good morning miss, are you doing okay?" said Jessica, she is another one of the maids. She is so polite and is always telling me the gossip of the town. "Yes I am, just thinking but thank you." "What about miss?" "Just the usual never going out of the house, my mother, father, and what to do with my life." "Amber I know it must be hard losing your mother and not having your father there for you, if you need to let out the anger I have a room available for you to rage out and break some things, but I am also here if you need someone to talk to about it all. I have also noticed you are wearing long sleeves all the time so please talk to someone even if you do not tell them every single detail."
That night I started all over again slicing my arms one line after the other, the burning sensation caressing my pale skin but then he walked in, a dreamy boy that I have avoided my whole life because I knew not, how to talk to boys. He was the boy of Jessica, the maid. She has told me so much about him but I do try to not think of those words for I have never loved nor do I want to start now. How could he walk in at such a horrible moment I must have scarred him for life with the blood dripping down my arm and the knife in my hand.
He ran over to me and dragged me into the bathroom, grabbed a rag, some medicine and a bandage and began cleaning and wrapping my arms. "I am so sorry you have to see this and go through this sir." "It is okay, miss I have seen worse and do not worry for I will not tell anyone but please not so deep in the future." "I will try and I must ask what are you doing up here at this time?" "My mother told me to check on you and did not say why so I came up here as soon as I could and I guess it was perfect timing."