Don't fall for 𝐡𝐢𝐦! (contains smut) || mattia polibio

-tears-

After what happened last night between me and Mattia there was this weird pressure between us all day long. Mostly on my part.

I just felt much more vulnerable in his eyes.

I didn't really talk to him until we got back to the hotel after being out touring the museum.

Maybe Geo was right...

Maybe Mattia was actually just trying to hit...

I was making these stupid assumptions just because we didn't really communicate throughout the day.

When we got back to the hotel the sun was already setting and it was getting darker outside.

"Amara?" Mattia said looking around the room till his eyes found mine "Wanna go for a cig?" he asked softly as he opened the balcony door letting the cold air flow in.

I just nodded my head in response. First full sentence he said today.

"Grab my hoodie, it's cold outside" he said before i reached the door.

"Here, take one" he held open the pack of cigarettes for me to take one.

I slipped one out of the box and he lit it for me.

For a few minutes we just sat in silence next to each other staring into the sunset with just a few inches between us.

It was weird. I still felt the pressure between us. I just wanted it to go away.

Mattia broke the awful silence as he put out his cigarette.

"Are you mad at me?" he asked leaning back on the balcony railing with his arms crossed.

I felt a sinking feeling in the pit of my stomache.

I wanted to cry.

"No, why would you think that?" i said, my eyes slightly tearing up.

He looked at me with a soft expression, furrowing his eyebrows at the sight of me tearing up.

Without saying a word he pulled me closer to him, placing my head on his chest.

"I'm sorry if i did something wrong yesterday or made you feel uncomfortable or anything like that. It wasn't my intention." he took a deep breath "I just noticed you were acting distant today and i assumed you were mad at me for some reason."

He stroked my hair while my head was buried into his chest, tears slowly escaping my eyes.

I couldn't figure out the reason why he made me feel this way. I never felt uncomfortable around him, not even after what happened between us.

Maybe it's just the fact that i got to see a different, soft and caring side of him these past few days and suddenly getting stripped of that affected me more than it should have.

"You're the first person i've ever opened up in front of..." he continued "I don't want you to ever feel hurt by me or to be mad at me. And i know this sounds very very stupid coming from me, the one person who doesn't seem like he would ever talk about such things. But i do care."

I took a deep breath before speaking, i didn't want him to hear my shaky voice.

"I kept thinking about what Gio said-"

"Don't ever think that's true" he cut me off as he cupped my cheeks and looked down at me.

When he saw my eyes filled with tears he looked away while biting his cheek.

"I'm sorry, i know i shouldn't cry over stuff like this" i said quickly wiping my tears with the sleeve of his hoodie that i put on.

He looked back at me and placed a small kiss on my
forehead. A kiss that felt more genuine than all the previous ones.

Without saying a word he held my hand and lead me back to the room, shutting the balcony door behind himself.

"You're leaving tomorrow morning right?" i asked as i sat down on his bed.

"Yea, i'll probably be gone before you wake up." he responded with his back turned to me.

"Oh.. right. I mean.. you could wake me up before you go so i can say goodbye." i added.

"Sure." he said as he walked to the bathroom to take a shower.

While Mattia was showering i kept thinking about the conversation we had on the balcony.

How he let his guard down around me and let his emotions surface.

I liked this side of him.

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The next day i woke up to some noise in our room. I opened my eyes to look around and saw Mattia closing his suitcase and gathering his stuff from around the room.

It was around 8am.

He didn't notice that i woke up so i pretended to be asleep. He walked up to my bed and placed a small kiss on my forehead "See you soon, Amara.."

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This part is also really short but i hope you enjoyed it <3
I decided to continue the story after a 2 year long pause from it, so i made a lot of edits to it and i hope there will still be some people to read it :3