The Kissing Game (sulljin version)

Chapter 5

Two weeks.

It had been two weeks since Yunjin had last spoken to Yoona. Like, actually spoken. Obviously at lunch they were civil with each other, but Yunjin couldn't bring herself to actually talk to the girl, no matter how hard she tried. She missed her best friend, but her confused feelings were making it hard for her to talk to her.

So she avoided her, settled for longing stares and half assed smiles. When the brunette would try to talk to her, she would make up some bullshit excuse and leave before Yoona could say anything. Yunjin knows she's hurting Yoona, hell she knows she's shutting herself, but she couldn't let herself feel. She couldn't let her stomach lurch every time Yoona smiled at her, she couldn't let her heart flutter every time Yoona laughed, she couldn't let her body react at every little touch from Yoona. She just couldn't.

Instead of letting anyone know what she was feeling, Yunjin would lock herself in her room every day after school. She tried, god did she try, to not think about the things Yoona does to her, the way her hands felt against her skin, the way her lips felt against her own, the way their bodies seemed to be made for each other, but she did. And she ended up crying herself to sleep for fourteen days straight.

On the third week, Yunjin decided to try and fix the mess she's in. As she walked into school, her eyes set in determination to find the person she's looking for, who was thankfully standing at their locker. She marched up to them with a purpose, and leaned against the locker next to them.

"Hey HyunJin."

Hwang HyunJin, campus fuckboy and an old friend of Yunjin's, turned towards the pink haired girl and greeted her with a lopsided smile, "Hey Yunjin, what's up?"

Yunjin moved into his personal space, giving him a seductive look she knew could bring anyone to their knees, and spoke, "Is there any way you could come over after school and help me with Chemistry? I'm a little behind and I could use the help."

HyunJin caught on immediately, smirking down at the girl, "Of course, does four sound good?"

"Perfect," she whispered, biting her bottom lip suggestively, before walking towards her first class of the day. Her thoughts were nagging her that none of this felt right, but she shoved them to the back of her mind before they made sense.

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HyunJin arrived on time, walking into the house with a smirk plastered on his face. He immediately moved closer to Yunjin, placing a hand on her cheek and rubbing it gently with his thumb.

"So, shall we start studying?" He asked with a cocked eyebrow.

Yunjin grabbed the back of his neck and pulled him in for a rough kiss. She couldn't stop herself from comparing HyunJin to Yoona. 'Her lips are softer, she's more gentle.'

HyunJin shoved his tongue into her mouth, making Yunjin almost grimace at the sloppiness of the kiss. None of this felt right, at all. His other hand came down roughly and groped at her breast, while Yunjin faked a moan to make him continue.

'What the fuck,' Yunjin thought, 'I'm straight. I'm straight, why do I hate this? What's wrong with me??'

HyunJin began to push her towards the couch as he unbuckled his pants and that was the last straw for Yunjin.

"Wait, HyunJin, stop." HyunJin stopped immediately.

"Shit, did I go too far?" He asked genuinely concerned.

"No no it's not you I just..." Yunjin trailed off, not knowing how to explain her situation to him.

"It's Yoona, isn't it?"

Yunjin's jaw slacked as she looked at him, her mouth opening and closing as she shook her head. "I-I don't... I don't know what you're talking about," she stuttered as she began to panic.

"Yunjin, we might no be close anymore but you're still just as easy to read. Now tell me what's going on?" HyunJin asked as he put a hand on Yunjin's shoulder.

At the sincerity in his words, Yunjin lost it. She wrapped her arms around his waist and cried. HyunJin held her tightly as she sobbed into his chest, broken and incoherent words spewing from her mouth as she let out everything she had been forcing herself not to feel.

"It's okay, you know? To feel something different," HyunJin spoke as he rubbed her back, calming her down slightly. "I know you're probably scared because she's a girl and you've never felt like this before, but that's okay. What you're feeling is valid. You are valid."

Yunjin's cry had nearly subsided at HyunJin's words, registering what he said to her.

"H-how did you know I-I have feelings for her?" Yunjin stuttered between heavy breaths.

"Your eyes give everything away," he chuckled. "You're always staring at her whether you realize it or not. And you always look sad when you look away."

"Am I really that obvious?" Yunjin pouted, making HyunJin laugh louder. "Sadly yes, but I don't think she's noticed."

Yunjin nodded, pulling away from HyunJin as she looked at him apologetically. "I'm sorry for , you know, trying to see you in an attempt to affirm my heterosexuality."

HyunJin just shook his head with a smile. "It's okay, I'm glad it was me instead of some other asshole who probably would've taken advantage of you."

Yunjin smiled at him and hugged him tightly. "Thank you for being so amazing."

"Of course. Now please, go get your girl."