Does anybody even see me? Series:2

Chapter 2: finally

I finally arrived home after an awkward walk. Go strait to the bathroom and puke I find my blade and slide it across my arm.
Uh uh that feels so nice I did it 9times. Then I slide it across my thigh I started crying. Chandler I letting out a cry. He came in my room where he heard the cry. Then he went to the bathroom and kissed me. I said "I never lost my virginity." He said "Bethany it's alright. I haven't did it with anyone I actually care about." I said "so your a man whore?" He said "no I only did it with Amy." I said "oh well who do you actually care about?" He said "I actually care about you." He hovers over me I say "I'm not ready not yet!" He said "oh okay sorry for trying to rush you!" Then I said "I wanna do it with someone I'm really with and I'm not with you sorry!" I went in the bathroom and he came in there and said "Is this your place?" I said "yeah" he said "oh okay" I said "wanna do something?" He said "yeah I'm up for something!" We walked to a to a park and swung it was like midnight.
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We arrived at his house and I go shower. I got out and had my bra and panties on that said pink on the butt part. I asked "do you have any shorts and a t-shirt?" He said "yeah" and came out with a pair of blue basket ball shorts and with a walker stalker I-con shirt. He said "all I have!" And bursted out laughing! I patted the bed and he came and laid by me. I climbed on top of him and kissed his neck and he rolls me over and climbs on top of me. I start to scream a playful scream! And he starts to tickle me. I said "I love you wanna get back together?" He says "yeah I love to!" He started to kiss my stomach and I start to laugh! He finally started kissing my lips!