Robert has been my friend for a while now we kissed a few times we drove around all the time I could tell him anything I told him about every one of those boys but for some reason I just him so I told him after wrestling meet and he took me to his house we of course fucked then we cuddled on his bed watching tick tock I thought it was so cute nothing could be better than we drove home and give me a kiss goodbye and I wanted to marry that man we've been friends for so long how to just know that I have feelings I loved him so much so a few days after that night I told him everything that I thought and that's when he said I'm not in the mental state to date right now and that's when it hit no man would ever love me no man could see me how I wanted him to see me I was so obsessed with Robert I am so obsessed still to this day I want him I keep thinking that maybe he will change maybe I will change maybe you won't be so difficult but so hard to know that the one man I want doesn't want me back all of those mistakes for nothing hurts like a bitch like you just got slapped with a fucking knife I want to kill myself thinking about it I have threatened suicide so many times and nobody even believes me anymore so maybe one day I just have to do it just go for it but I want to wait for Robert I want to wait until he knows what he's going to miss I really love him don't and that is my story.
