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wednesday dorm room 1:09pm
"𝙊𝙆𝘼𝙔 𝙍𝙀𝙏𝙄𝙍𝙀𝘿 𝙃𝙊𝙀, 𝙏𝙀𝙇𝙇 𝙈𝙀 𝙀𝙑𝙀𝙍𝙔𝙏𝙃𝙄𝙉𝙂." you say shaking armin so he can get up. "damn can i wake up first?" he responds his voice low and raspy. "mf you've been sleep all morning it's 1.
"fineee" he drags on as he sits up against the headboard, "you want me to start from the beginning or just tell you the extreme stuff?" he asks. "i want you to brush your teeth." smacking his lips he gets up and goes to the bathroom.
"and what do you mean extreme? nigga was a gotham villain in his past life" say bust out laughing while following him to the bathroom. "alright now i'm not about to tell you" he side eyes you, "don't play."
when armin is done brushing his teeth, you two walk back to the bedroom and sit on the bed.
"it was basically an unhealthy way of coping. my parents had both passed away, i was a wreck. eren let me stay with him because i couldn't stay in that house or with my relatives, i didn't want to deal with the questions and the 'are you okay?' i just couldn't." you see his eyes begin to water but a tear drop doesn't fall.
"i got high often and i partied often. my mind was constantly clouded and i made most decisions while being high. that's when the girls came in and when annie came in as well. yeah i fucked around a lot but it was never like that with annie."
"i was doing it because i thought it would erase the pain, but annie wanted it because of what she heard about me, she didn't care about the reason i did it. she just wanted to fuck."
"even high i saw right through it. all of the other girls knew what happened and tried to comfort me and it worked for a while but then we just slept together. annie though... it was only about saying she fucked armin arlert."
"i'm not going to say i didnt do anything wrong, because i made countless mistakes." he begins listing mistakes he's made. "having sex with girls to just ghost them the next day, not being considerate of their feelings, not going to therapy"
"even though eren was doing the same as me, i realize now that i was taking advantage of his kindness and his friendship. he let me heal, he didn't bombard me with questions, he told me what i was doing was wrong and constantly advised against it but in the end it was my choice. he came to his senses before me after he messed things up with mikasa, that really fucked him up." he says and it makes you remember when mikasa came to you and sasha crying.
"eren held me accountable after that and i apologized to every girl that i treated that way. but meeting you is what really made me realize that i never ever want to be like that again. i didn't want my past to fall back on you and i especially didn't want it to affect the relationship that we had which is why i didn't tell you about annie or about everything else. if you saw me differently because of that, i don't know what i would do with myself. there really is no other girl like you y/n, i would be stupid as fuck to lose that.
"real as hell. sorry..." a laugh leaves your mouth and a smile appears on armins face. "i would never see you differently my love, that was before i met you and everyone has their own past. you shouldn't be ashamed of yours." you say trying comfort him and placing a kiss on his forehead.
before he could get a sentence out, tears fall from his eyes. "i hate crying if i'm being honest." he expressed while laughing slightly. "i love you so much y/n l/n, more than i could ever express."
"damn the whole government name?" you question going in for a hug, "and i love you too armin arlert" you say whispering into his ear.
