I just happened to be alone every day. Once it all took on. I never knew why my life was so lonely. Recently, I just wanted to move on. But everything just never seems to end. All suffering just continues. I happened to be alone today. I do not know anyone anymore. I am alone everyday.
I am Soera. That is who I am.
I stood alone. I stand alone. All by myself.
I don't wait. I just stand.
I know. This all means siminal. It does not mean literal. But, I just feel that everyday pass by. I just wait for time to waste. I don't expect anymore.
I am currently 23 years old.
I have been bullied my entire life by some. Just a few are those who started bullying me. I just don't know why they do, but they do. I don't fight. I don't wait. I just want time to waste.
Oh, it's all alone.
I don't talk to anyone much.
I just stand there.
I sleep.
I dream.
"Hello."
"Who are you?"
"Wait to find out..."
I wake up just now. Who was that? Who was he? That was a weird dream. I wonder who that was. He did seem very familiar.
I get ready. I wear normal clothes, shoes, and carry a normal bag. I tried my best to present myself. But everyday, it all just goes wrong.
I drive out today.
A man just almost caused an accident against me.
He smirked at me.
Just a man who stalked me. I don't even know him. There are many men who stalk and bully me everyday. I don't know what they want from me. But they do all the time. Not all men. But many. I don't even want to wonder who they are. I get threats everyday from those men. I don't even know them.
I don't even know how to talk to others. I wonder how that works. The world is disorderly and chaotic. I don't know why. But it is.
I drive to the grocery store. A man just cut me off. He almost caused on accident on purpose. Intentionally. He glared at me.
I really did nothing.
I am chased by some men. There are some women who also do it for them.
Everyday, I just pass to waste time. I don't even wait for all to be over. I always prioritize on not revolving my life around those bullies. I am an adult, yet I still get bullied.
When I was a child, I thought I would never get bullied, once I become an adult. But I still do. I don't ask why anymore. I know that the reason is not important. It's the action.
I entered the grocery store.
A man attacked me.
I turned around.
He smirked at me.
"Why did you do that?" I asked.
"What are you talking about?" He lied.
"You just attacked me."
"You are a crazy woman."
"No, you are crazy."
"Shut up." He threatened, "No one know you. No one cares about you."
I did not expect him to say that. He must be one of those men who stalked me.
"I never expected others to."
He seemed surprised.
"Well, now you should. Everyone hates you. I hope you disappear."
"That was alarming. That was very attacktive to say to a random person."
"Shut up. Get out of here, you psycho. Or else, I will call the police."
"You were the one who attacked me."
"Shut up! Get out! I hate you! Disappear! No one likes you!"
He seemed 34 years old.
"Fine, I'll leave."
I leave glaring at him. He seems so proud of himself. I hope I never see him again.
I went to my car. I cried.
"Why! Why do so many men bully and harass me everyday! I am so miserable!"
I cry as my tears fall.
20 minutes pass by. I leave the grocery store.
I drive.
"Ahh!" I scram. A man almost caused an accident.
"I hate your car!"
I just drive by.
I go home.
I am home.
I lay on my bed.
I check my phone.
'0 notifications'
I have no friends.
I have no one by my side. People either don't care about me, don't know me, or hate me.
Oh well. I feel numb sometimes because of the sufferings.
"Hey."
I get surprised.
I look around.
I guess I just overheard outside-
"Hey."
"Ahh!" I get surprised.
"Hey, I said hey to you."
"What?"
"I said hey to you."
"Oh, okay."
"Oh, hello."
"Hello."
I just ignore-
"Why didn't you respond?"
"What?"
"Why didn't you respond?"
"What? I thought you are just a voice in my head..."
"What are you saying?"
"Some people say I'm crazy. So sometimes, I think I talk to myself."
"No, I am a separate being talking to you."
"Really?"
"Yep..."
"But I can't see you. Are you a ghost?"
"No..."
"Who are you?"
"Aviler."
