I thought I lost you- BYLER

4/3/1986(Mike's POV)

Again, Dear 'Journal Thing',

So, I found a good place to put this and found out Will writes in one too. I guess I'll just, I don't know, talk about my feelings in this then. I honestly don't know what to write about but at the same time I need to just get something down or else I'll freak out again, and that was embarrasing. I guess I'll just recap everything that has happened so I can put sense into it. 

So when spring break started it was awesome, a bit awkward for some reason but whatever. Then everything went to shit. Eleven got arrested, Max almost fucking died, apparently Eddie did die. I also forgot about Will's birthday. I mean I didn't forget, I had actually been thinking about it forever but I thought everyone would think it was childish or something to bring a present and make a big deal so I didn't do anything. He was acting like a bum all day and I knew it was my fault, it ruined my day. I shouldn't have been focusing on him anyways but then I started acting like a jerk. 

But I think things are, okay between us now and I really cherish the painting he gave me. I'm gonna be honest, I thought it was for someone he liked, maybe Angela. But he gave it to me, his painting means so much to me, he's my bestfriend. 

Anyways after the whole "earthquake" in Hawkins and everything it's been crazy! We're living in a fucking apocalypse! Dustin and Lucas have been acting different, they're not doing well. Eddie died in Dustin's arms and then Dustin had to leave him in the upside down, it was pretty fucking traumatizing for him. Max is awake though, which is good. I feel bad she had to wake up to all this. We all live in the hostpital so we can make sure Max is safe too. There's a lot of people here with us, all the doctors(which we're really really lucky to have), the patients from the "earthquake", a lot of other people who we brought with us, and then the few who just ran into the nearest building when they realized what was going on. My dad, my mom, and Holly, they're not in here, I still look for them, I know they're alive. 

Anyways, this is probably the best place to be in the apocalypse. There's doctors, food, a good building, and the people aren't crazy. These people, they understand not to try and raid the other buildings because we're all in this together. 

Most people believe this is some bible shit like Judgement Day or something, we have a priest who rants about this stuff in the basement on Sundays. But the people who really do know the truth is everyone who knew before plus this girl, Robin, Nancy, and Jonathan's age named Vickie, and then this girl named Jessie who I don't really like. So in all: Hopper, Joyce, me, Nancy, El, Will, Jonathan, Max, Lucas, Erica, Dustin, Jessie, Robin, Steve, Vickie, and Argyle(I wonder if his family worries about him)

Out of all of us we share 3 rooms which is crowded but a pretty good amount of rooms if you think about it. (There's 300 rooms plus the basement which can fit 30 people plus all the stuff down there. Hawkin's population is around 20,000(15,000 now) and then theres about 2000 in this building, that's about 6 or 7 to a room and so ya, we all fit pretty comfortably, plus all the rooms are close to each other and we all know each other so we can switch around and stuff. 

Anyways, Me, Will, Dustin, Jessie, Joyce, and El share one room. Robin, Steve, Nancy, Jonathan, Argyle, and Vickie share another. And then Max, Lucas, Erica, and Hopper share the other. There's less people in Max's room because she has to have her own bed. The hostpital doesn't have enough beds for everyone and the ones they do have go to people that are hurt. But we still have beds I guess, blankets, pillows, jackets, we've made it as comfortable as we can. And it's 2 to a "bed". 

Our arrangements are; Me and Dustin, El and Jessie, and then Joyce and Will. then I'm pretty sure Lucas and Erica and hopper gets a spot to himself. then I heard Jonathan and Argyle share a bed, then vickie and Nancy, and then(i remember this because everyone was debating this for a bit) Robin and Steve. Hopper and Joyce(the only adults I guess you could say) said they didn't want any, and i quote, "funny business" going on in the "older teenager room". Nancy and Jonathan were going to share but they said they didn't want to after they broke up and also Robin was kinda being weird about her and Vickie sharing one, i don't know why. All of that drama was so unnecessary in my opinion when there is so much more things to worry about. Steve and Robin eventually convinced Hopper that (robin's words) they are "Platonic with a capital P."

Oh shit, I have to go.