My Best Friend's Son

Chapter 17. Fault

Jennifer's POV:

My whole world just stopped.

To say my heart was breaking was an understatement.

But how many times does my heart have to break for it to stop breaking?

How many more times do I need to break?

As Ryan pointed the gun at Andrew, many things were rushing through my head. Was I gonna raise Anderson alone? Or will this also mean the end of my very own family? I just can't believe how quickly my life turned upside down. When I saw Ryan pull the trigger that's when I want the ground to swallow me whole. I didn't want to see Andrew die, I didn't want to see my whole world shatter before me. I was weak.

Weak to not stand up to Andrew and tell him I love him.

Weak, that I ran away from him when... I can't anymore.

I'm too weak to finish my sentence.

I shut my eyes tightly. Hoping this horrible nightmare was just a bad dream. The sound of the gun echoed through the room, piercing my ears giving it a lingering sound. As I opened my eyes, what I saw was beyond anything I could ever imagine.

Amber stood in front of the gun, a bloody whole was in her stomach. Even a person who knows nothing about being a medical doctor would know that Amber's baby was dead. Ryan still held the gun to her but his eyes were looking into Ambers'. His eyes wide and his mouth was slightly ajar.

"Amber.... What have I done?" Ryan asked softly to no one.

Amber fell to the ground and so did Ryan. Ryan held her as he asked "Why?" tears were now pricking his eyes. "I... I... couldn't let you do it... I know that if you did it— you would rage. I needed you to understand that killing isn't the answer." she said as she choked on her own blood. "At the cost of your own life? Amber... we could of had it all." he said as he started sobbing.

I wanted to say that the sight was sad but Ryan had it coming. You never know what truly happens when you pick up a gun.

"That's... the thing Ryan... you can't have everything—" "Yes, we could!! It's your fault why we're like this now!!" Ryan barked but you still tell that he was crying, that he was still hurting. He was biting the back of his hand to keep from sobbing even more. Amber chuckled but spurted out blood from her mouth. "No Ryan.... It's your fault." those were her last words before her eyes rolled to the back of her head. Ryan gave out a shout that could speak a thousand words and was worth more than a hundred tears. "No... Amber!! I love you!! I love you!! Please, come back!! Don't leave me... Amber please!!" he sobbed out not really ashamed that he was crying in front of us as he cling to Amber's body like his life depended on it.

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Michael was able to get out of his ropes and call the police. Ryan was too sad to even notice that we were still in the room. When the police and ambulance came Ryan refused to leave Amber's body. When I was released I quickly ran over to Anderson to check if he wasn't hurt. Luckily, he wasn't. Right as I hugged Anderson, we were quickly pulled into a huge hug by Andrew. Tears were in both of our eyes. As we pulled away I pulled Andrew back in for a kiss. Also making sure that Anderson doesn't get squished between us.

As I pulled away I told him, "Drew... I'm sorry, I'm sorry I left you back in college. I'm sorry for not telling you about Anderson. I'm sorry for everything!!" as more tears ran down my face. Andrew cupped my face as he stared at me with so much love. Love that I needed for a long time. "Jen, I love you! No need to be sorry... but there's one thing you could do for me." he said

"What? Anything!" I said too desperately.

"Marry me."