How Long Is Forever [BoyxBoy]

Chapter 3

 I took the boxes of pizza, closed the door, and set the boxed on the table. Jessica came running into the kitchen and grabbed herself a slice. "Oh my gosh! Erick, there's a note inside this box." she said, stuffing her face into the pizza. 

I grabbed the note and opened it. "What does it say?" Jessica asked.

 "Nothing." I tell her and threw the note in the trash. 

 "It must be something if you threw it away." 

 "Don't worry about it." 

Jessica rolled her eyes. "You should give him another chance." 

 This girl did not just say that. After all that I've been though. I'm not even sure that I would take him back. "You can't deny love." 

 "Whose side are you on anyways?" 

 "Loves side." I rolled my eyes. I don't see any love in this who scenario. I just see a guy who I loved terrorize me. I bet he's having fun making me miserable. 

 ***

   "So, what's your family like?" Jessica asked as we walked around the neighborhood. We had walked out the backdoor. I didn't want Jason to bother us. 

"Okay, I guess."

 "You guess?"

 "They're cool. As long as I'm not into any trouble, everything is fine."  

 "Oh, are you close to them?" 

 I sighed. When will she stop asking me all of these questions? She's so nosey. 

 ***

 Why is it so hard to get over someone that never even loved you? Why is it no one understands your pain? Why is they never understand that when we say I'm Fine it's always a lie? Why is it we've been telling people I'm fine for so long they never even see behind the masks we wear? We get pushed to the limit, we break and we do the same thing over and over again and they still never figure it out. My only question is, Why? 

  "Erick? Hello? Are you even listening to me?" Jessica crossed her arms and rolled her eyes. 

 "Sorry, I zoned out." 

 "Okay, well, what do you think about this outfit?" she made a 360 and posed. I giggled. 

  She was wearing a belted corset with shredded seamless leggings. Oh my gosh, she looks like a prostitute! Her mother would kill her if she went out in public. I would do it.  "Its... okay." 

 "I look like a slut. I know." 

 "I mean, you look fine." she went back into the dressing room. 

 ***

 "Well hello there, Erick!" A voice said from behind. I almost choked on my spit.  

 "What are you doing here?" 

 "It's a mall, I can come here whenever I want." he said. I rolled my eyes. He just had to come here when I do. Alright then. 

 Jason stared at me and I couldn't help but notice his eyes. They were filled with..regret? I have never actually thought that he would have a spark of regret in him. Maybe I'm imagining this. I tend to think of things that aren't real. Like that time in the classroom. I was just imagining the whole thing. 

 "You look beautiful, you know? You haven't changed a bit." he whispered in my ear. It sent chills down my back. 

 I pushed him away. "Don't you have better things to do?"

 "Like you?" I blushed. STOP it brain. You can't let him get to you. You have to show him that you're not interested. Oh.. but you are. What the hell. 

 "Why are you doing this to me? What have I done that made you want to hurt me so badly?" 

 "I was lonely at the time, E. And I don't know what I was thinking at the time. I was stupid then." 

 "You still are. You broke my heart Jason. I loved you." 

 "And you still do." 

 My heart was beating fast. "No, I don't. I'm over you. Okay? Just do me a favor and leave me alone. I don't want anything to do with you." 

 "You're lying to yourself. We both know that we had that special connection. I still feel it. When I kissed you in that classroom, I felt that spark that we had." 

 " You're just using me. Just leave me alone!" I shouted. People stared at us.

Jessica opened the door and gasped.  "You're much hotter up close." I rolled my eyes. "Keep doing that and your eyes will roll out of your sockets." 

 "Whatever, mom." 

 Jason chuckled. I miss his chuckles. I miss him. What the hell am I thinking. I'm suppose to be in pain. I shouldn't miss the one who hurt me the most. That's not how it goes.

 ***

 "I will always care for you, even if we are not together and even if we are far away from each other." Jason wrapped his arms around me. I inhaled that scent of cologne that covered his body. I always loved that scent. I wonder what brand he's using. 

 "And what if you stop caring?"

 "That's impossible."

 We stood there for a while. His train was about to dispatch. "I love you." I tell him and kissed him goodbye. 

 I stood there, watching as he walked on the train. He sat down and we stared at each other through the glass between us.  'I love you' he mouthed. 

 And then his train left.

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what what what what.. I uploaded.. yeah.. sorry that it sucks. haha.. I wrote this story when I was heartbroken.. but im not anymore.. so yeah.