How Long Is Forever [BoyxBoy]

Chapter 5

 It's already been a day now since I've been in the hospital. Mom came back soon as the clock struck 8 am. Dad couldn't come. Mom wouldn't tell me. I didn't bother to ask anymore questions. My doctor told me that I was able to leave by the end of the day. I didn't like being in hospitals. It smelled like death. For all I know, someone could have died or given birth in this room. 

 "I'm so sorry I didn't notice how much you were hurting." Mom said for the thirtieth time. I

 "It's okay. You wouldn't even notice if it struck you in the face. You and dad are never around anymore." 

 "Don't say that Erick. We're working very hard to support this family. You know that." Mom's eyes saddened. 

 "But when was the last time we spent together as a family?" 

 "We try to stay for breakfast. I try." 

 Even though my family accepted me as a homosexual, things really haven't been the same. Yes, they support me in every way, but they keep their distance from me like I'm some sort of plague. At least, my dad does. I love my family. I really do. 

 'Knock knock'

 My head whipped to the door. I frown. 

 "Jason, I haven't seen you in a long time! How are you?" My mothers faced brightened. 

 My mom always loved Jason. She always looked forward to seeing him. Even after I told her what happened a year ago, she still loved him. She wanted us to get back together! 

 Jason hugged my mother and smiled at me. My cheeks began to heat up. I always loved his smiles. What am I even thinking? This guy cheated on me. I shouldn't even be thinking about his perfect smile. His smile could cheer up the grumpy cat! 

 "I'm doing well,  Hannah. Yourself?" He was always good with manners. 

  "I'm fine. Just a bit stressed out. Where have you been?"

 "I just had to get away for awhile. But I'm back now." He flashed my mom a smile and stared into my eyes. "I have things that I have to take care of."

 Mom began talking about him and school and other stuff. Then she had a phone call from work and she had to go. Leaving me with Jason.

 "I missed you, you know that. Right?" Jason said, pacing around the room. He ran his fingers through his hair. 

 I didn't know what to say. Well, I wanted to say, "Well whose fault is it anyways? You're the one who left, not me." But I just kept my mouth shut. 

 "I was stupid to let you go. I really was. I regret that doing what I did. And now you're suffering because I'm not there to protect you. It's all my fault that you're in here now. You don't deserve this." He sounded really apologetic. 

 It had been a year since that day, and I always thought that he didn't even care how much pain he put me through. Everyday I had to get up off my feet and walk into that school and get bullied. He has no idea what that did to me. He didn't even bother to say goodbye to me. I spent my nights crying. Then I had to try and keep my head held up high. Even if I wanted to break down. 

  "You should leave now, Jason." I told him bluntly. 

 "Please, I want to make it up to you."

 Why is he trying to be on my good side? Did he forget that he cheated on me? If he thinks that I'm just going to push the past behind me, he better think again! "Just go." 

 The next thing he did was absolutely real. Not just an imagination I created in my head. It was real. Jason crashed his lips onto mine. I didn't know how to react. It was so sudden. He licked my bottom lip and invited his tongue into my mouth. The heart monitor was going off the charts. I push him off of me. As much as I wanted to continue, I had to stop it. 

 Jason looked at me with those puppy dog eyes. I tried my hardest not to succumb. "You have to go Jason." 

 "I want to make things better Erick. Please. I'll do anything." He begged. I just wanted to get up and hug him, but I couldn't. I had to be strong. "I promised your mother I'd stay to keep you company." 

 "I don't need your company. I'm fine being alone. That's all I want right now." 

 A nurse came in to check up on me. And then left. Jason sat down on the edge of the bed. "I don't want to leave you again. I really don't. What if something happens to you and no one is here to help you?" 

 "This is a highly trained hospital. I'll be fine. Just go. Don't make me have to call in a nurse." I picked up the remote that would bring in a nurse. 

 "I have to make things right between the both of us. I don't like seeing you like this. It's killing me inside." 

  "Well I'm trying to heal and you  being here isn't helping." 

 I tried my best to sound like an asshole. But my voice would come out soft. "Erick." 

 "Leave. Now." 

 Jason frowned, but left anyways. The door was closed and the room was silent. The only sound made was the heart monitor and my slow breathing. I tried to get comfortable, but every thing I tried either hurt or was uncomfortable. I stare at the spot Jason was standing in 30 minutes ago. I imagined him telling me how he wanted me back and how much he misses me. I sigh. Why can't I get over him?