𝐁𝐮𝐫𝐝𝐞𝐧 (𝐂.𝐒)

𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝟒

-𝐃𝐚𝐧𝐭𝐞-

I had told my dad about me leaving again. He hated it but for some reason I didn't feel as bad as I thought I would. Maybe because our fight earlier. Carlos would stay for dinner and he was helping me set the table. I had showered and changed into some sweatpants and a hoodie. My favorite clothing items. I sat down on the kitchen counter as dad was cooking and Carlos was setting the table.

"Dante make yourself useful please."

"No thanks."

"That wasn't a question."

"But you got my answer."

"Now!"

"Alright alright."

I jumped off the counter and went tot the dinning room. Carlos looked up while he was placing down the three plates. I grabbed knives and forks and placed them on the table. Carlos stood still next to me and stared at me intensely. I could feel his eyes burn on my skin and it made butterflies erupt in my stomach. God I don't want this. I'm a fricking combat leader I can't let people attach them to me because I've a high percentage of dying at work. I looked up and into his eyes. His brown eyes had a soft glossy look which made them gentle. The tiniest and most reassuring smile I had ever seen came on his fave as his hand pushed a few strands of hair behind my ear. It made me a little weak in the knees and I hated this darn feeling. His hand staid on my cheek as his face came towards my slowly. I don't want to kiss him! Oh my move Dante! MOVE YOUR LEGS! Before I knew Carlos his lips were on mine. His lips were warm and to be honest quite soft. His lips fitted with mine like that 1 missing puzzle piece that's always missing... god I need this to stop. His tongue was inside of my mouth now as well. After a few I pulled myself back slowly.

"Sorry... I don't think this is a good idea..."

"Why not?"

His voice was soft and sounded so innocent. Like nothing happened just a few seconds ago.

"I don't want people to attach to me... because of my job you know."

"I want you Dante. Even if that means your job being a possibility of you leaving me alone a lot."

"I know you do... but I don't know if I do. I don't want to worry every second about the love of my life waiting at home for me."

"Love of your life? Your admitting quick Mrs. I don't want a boyfriend!"

"No that's not what I meant Carlos. I meant if I have that person waiting for me at home. I don't know who that is yet."

"Then let's find out."

"Are you even listening?"

"Yes. And I think your out of your mind for thinking like that. It's human to feel and be loved you know. There's nothing wrong with you."

"Your annoying."

I walked out of the dinning room to the kitchen but Carlos stopped me in front of the kitchen door. He pinned me against the wall gently.

"Dante. One chance. That's all I need. But you have to be honest okay?"

"No. I'm not giving you a chance."

"Then you're not going anywhere."

"Your seriously gonna hold me till I'm saying yes?"

"Yes I am."

"No your not."

I crossed my arms and looked at him a little threatening. He pushed my chin up and his mouth was a few inches away.

"That cute little face can't scare me hermosa."

"Fine. One chance is all you get. Screw up and you're not getting another chance."

"Deal."

"Okay. But it has to wait till I'm back home."

"That will do."

I shook my head softly at him as he chuckled softly. We all sat down in the dinning room and ate the paella my dad had made for us. We ate in silence as I shared a glance with Carlos from time to time. When dinner was over I went upstairs and changed myself again. I had fully changed into uniform by now and was done doing my sleek ponytail with my brown hair. I packed my last stuff and went downstairs to find Carlos also with his coat on.

"I offered to drop you off... since I need to ride home either way."

"Oh... how nice of you."

I smiled at him a little sarcastic and then turned to my dad. I hugged him and I felt him kiss my forehead. He hated my job because of this part.

"Stay safe mi hija."

"I will try papa. See you in 6 months."

I sighed as I let go of him and walked outside with Carlos. I placed my suitcase in the trunk and then sat down next to him. Carlos grabbed my hand and I for some reason couldn't resist to hold his back tightly.I gave him a gentle squeeze so he knew I noticed and was okay with it. The ride was silent after we waved at my dad one last time. The radio played song after song and was the only really loud noice in the car. Except our breathing and cars around us. I felt kind of... complete with Carlos holding my hand and I didn't want it to stop yet but we had parked at the airport. We climbed out and he helped me get my suitcase even though I could carry it easily with 2 fingers. He pecked my lips after looking around us and when he let go we both had a tiny smile.

"See you in 6 months hermosa."

"See you then Sainz."

I smiled one more time before I headed inside not daring to look back at him even though I wanted to so so badly. My heart said... no screamed YES YES TURN AROUND while my head told me not too because it would help me stop my thoughts about him... about us. God this was a terrible idea. To let him kiss me in the first place. To let him even help me. To let him back into my life after all those peaceful years. I hate myself for this! Jeez get yourself together Dante! Get your head in the game!

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