as long as im here (RINNEY)

"YOU LIKE WHO????"

Robin's POV

     Ever since i realised im gay and i like finn, ive been acting weird. to myself atleast. i didnt know i was gay, but i guess that explains why ive never liked a girl. or anyone for that matter. or maybe im bisexual, i just havent met the right girl. i dont know, who cares. i wont come out till im ready though. after all, i just found out too.

time skip to math

" finn, are my answers correct??" i asked finn, passing him my worksheet. "no robinnnnn.. you got the whole thing messed up. youre supposed to do thissss not thattt!" he sighed. it was cute honestly. oh my god this is so WEIRD.. i smiled at him and he frowned. " fuck are u smiling at?? correct your answers goddamn it ! " he smacked me with my worksheet and placed it on my desk, sighing, while doing so. oh shit what did he tell me to do again..

Finney's POV

       Robin's stupidity kills me!!!! i just gave him the answer and he STILL got it wrong! i sighed and explained it again and he let out an "oooooooooh" . teaching him is like teaching a newborn baby how to rap. it's frustrating!! but he was patient with me in spanish so i will be with him too.

oh yeah spanish and math!

"hey, robin?"
-"yeah?" he said, but still looking at his paper.
"when's our next tutoring?"
he looked up from his worksheet and looked at me.
- "uh i dont know. does wednesday sound good to you?"  he replied while spinning his pen.

do i have anything on wednesday? i dont think so..

"sure"

The bell rang and they went to their own seperate classes
(still finney's POV)

i walked into science to see Donna. Maybe i wasnt losing feelings? i still feel butterflies when i see her. maybe i just wasnt myself at that time.

i walked to my seat and donna greeted me. "hey finn" "hey donna" it was an awkward silence then we talked like normal again. she was really pretty.

Robin's POV
  
    The bell rang and i headed for recess. I was always at the table before finn. i sat beside gwen and stared at the table in silence. "robin you okay?" gwen asked me and broke my trance. "huh? oh. yeah i am. im just thinking of someone— something." i replied and she raised her eyebrow. gwen was a smart person, she knew something was off. but like i said, she was smart. so she didnt question me anymore.

finn entered the canteen and all my problems left my mind. if this is what falling in love feels like i should do it more.

"hey robin" he said, more enthusiastically than usual. " hey finn" i replied, in a tone that showed absolutely no interest. ive always been able to hide my emotions so hiding my emotions from others arent that hard.

or maybe i was too overconfident because when vance passed our table he raised an eyebrow at me, smiling, and i gave a "fuck off" look. vance was the only person that could read my emotions better than others. its a skill honestly.

or maybe i was just too quiet. i dont know, i need to wash my face. "hey, ill be right back. im gna go to the washroom." i said and walked to the washroom before either of them responded.

i washed my face and stared at myself in the mirror with my hands on the sink.

a cubicle door opened.

vance stepped out and looked surprise to see me.

- "you good ? " he said, walking towards the sink and washing his hands.
" yea. what makes u think im not?" i replied, wiping my hands with a tissue.
-"hmm i dont know. besides the fact your face was red the whole time."
" my face was WHAT." i said, turning to him.
- " yeah, your cheeks were on fire. straight out of hell."
" why didnt you tell me?!" i said, covering my face and leaning against the wall.
-" because you came right out of physical education. if i didnt know you better, id think you were red from running. but i do. and you barely sweat in physical education. is that even healthy??"

   i sighed.

" will you help me? i need to learn to stop— you know .."
"just say it bruh"
-"no"
-"say it"
"no, shut up"
- "fine. bye"

this asshole makes me want to hang myself and feed my corpse to bats.

"FINE. i need to learn to stop ..blushing."
- "sorry what was that? i couldnt hear you"
" shut up, we both know damn well you heard it."
-" wasnt that hard was it?"
"shut up and teach me"
-"on one condition"
"oh my fucking god"
-"tell me who it is"
"what the fuck no"
- " okay then bye"
" i hate you so much"
-" you gon' tell me ?"
" finney." i whispered.
-"bro are you talking to me or the sink"
i glanced around the bathroom, and at the open cubicle doors, ensuring nobody was around to hear.
" finney. i like finney."
vance's eyes opened wide.
-" YOU LIKE WHO??????"
" you gonna tell the whole world? "
-" youre gay?"
"i think. i just found out yesterday. and i was not planning on telling anyone yet, but you couldnt mind your own business."
-" oops."
" so you gonna help me or not?"
-" oh yeah. think of finney."

i thought of him and looked at myself in the mirror. my cheeks looked like they were dipped in red paint. vance wasnt lying.

-" now think of kissing matt"
"ew gross what the fuck bro" 
he looked at me, smiling.
" look"

he pointed to the mirror and i turned. my cheeks werent red anymore. they were back to normal.

"woah"
-" youre not done yet"
"huh"
-" even if you dont blush, if you act like how you did just now, pretty sure youd be found out." he said, crossing his arms.
"so what do i do?"
-" act interested but not interested."
" uhh and how do i do that"
-" try it the next time you talk to him."
" okay"
- " goodluck bro"

i washed my hands again and left the washroom. i hope whatever vance said works.

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hey guys hehehe sorry i havent been posting constantly ☹️ my mental health's been at one of its lowest points and sometimes i dont have motivation. i wont say ill take a break because writing is one of my coping mechanisms but its just my motivation 😅 i might post every 2 or 3 days but i cant promise itll be every day like it used to be. thank you for reading to this far! also im really sorry for my spelling and grammar mistakes in the previous and this chapter if there are any! i swear im really good at english but my brain isnt fully conscious in the middle of the night! love you guys always ❤️