the decision

Monday.

Do you ever feel like your body is frozen? That feeling where you want to move but you can't. Stuck between ice and water. Wanting to run away from your biggest fear. All you can do is scream, but it comes out as a whisper. Forcing the muscles in your body to do something, anything, but all they do is stay still. Waiting for the fear to come to you, approaching you slowly. You try everything in your power to over come that fear, but you can't do anything. You cry for help, hoping someone will come to your rescue.

No one. Not one single person can hear you.

Once in realization that no one is coming, tears start streaming. Hot tears burning against your skin. A croak builds up in your throat. The croak soon turn into sobs, that you can't stop.

But the suddenly someone notices you. That someone coming to rescue you..

Matt Espinosa.

Suddenly the the fear you were so afraid of comes to a sudden stop.

Cameron stops.
Noticing Matt by my side, tears start to form in the eyes I love so much. He turns around and goes out one of the doors that lead him to the outdoors, trying to get away from me.

My attention is then shifted to Matt. I noticed the concerned look in his eyes. The smile that was on his face is now a straight line. His eyebrows are draw together as in a questioning look of are you okay.

My brain lets me think that I am, but my heart tells me otherwise. Torn into a million pieces. Shattered and broken.

I try plastering the best smile I can, drawing back the tears that formed in my eyes at the sight of Cameron.

I speak softly, "Oh hey Matt, it's nice seeing you here, did you get your schedule?"

He didn't fall for my little act, I mean who would. But aware of all the eyes on us he decided it'd be easy to just follow along. He nodded and handed me a little piece of paper.

I looked down at it.
My muscles relaxed. I was able to move again. I started walking and he trailed behind me. I showed him his locker, which wasn't too far from mine. I looked down at it again. Smiling, I noticed that we had 4 classes together, my smile was soon replaced when I noticed that we had History and Physical Education together, with Cameron...

Matt broke my thoughts when he said, "I though I wasn't going to see you here today, but I'm glad that you came. I was so afraid i'd have to find all of this by myself you know. And look like a loser the outcast. Anyways, I was wondering, do we have any classes together?" My response to his question was a nod. His eyes brightened up "Oh thank god, I was hoping wd did. Anyways which ones do we have together?"

I laughed at how excited he seemed. "We have Math third hour, Lunch sixth, History seventh and Physical education eighth."

"Oh my god yes" He sounded like such a girl, this only brought a giggle out my mouth. "Do you mind if I sit at your table, I mean if you have any spots left" He spoke in a shy tone.

"Of course you can, just a little warning my friends might be all over you today." I winked, trying to act like I was okay. "Anyways I have to go talk to my teacher, I'll see you third hour, I'll meet you at your locker!" I waved and walked away from him.

Lies, I thought.

I was searching for Cameron. I have no idea why. I was terrified to meet him this morning, but he was also terrified of me. Matt was right. His words replayed in my ears.

You know you can't avoid him forever.

A/n:
heyy guys so I hoped that you like the updates. But yeah I don't really have much to say, besides have a great day !