Chapter One
10 years ago (Kasey)
After feeling sick all week I knew I needed to talk to my mom she always looked after me when I was feeling down or sick. "Mom, where are you?" waiting for her to reply, I heard nothing I wonder where she was "MOM" I shouted as I made my way down stairs "kitchen honey" walking down the hallway I made my way into the kitchen and my mom's making breakfast "Morning baby, feeling any better today?" smiling I take a seat at the table "No mom, I was wondering if you could take me the doctors" "of course I can honey, we'll have our breakfast then we'll go okay sweetie" smiling I eat some dry toast which is the only thing I can keep down without throwing up I'm sick of this I hate being sick and I miss matt. We haven't really seen each other since I've been sick it's like his ignoring me, it's worrying me because we've been close ever since we got together when I was 14 and I miss him. "You spoke to matt honey?" my mom asks whilst I'm daydreaming, my eyes start to well up and my mom notices and pulls me into a hug "oh honey why are you crying?" "because" "baby, if you don't't tell me I can't help you?" turning to look up at my mom she's smiling down at me "he came around earlier this week, but after Monday he seemed I don't't know off" I look at her with a confused face "his probably busy with school work and watching over his sister, you know how he is always busy I'm sure it's nothing" "yeah you right, I'll go get dress now then", after getting dress were out the door and heading to the doctors.
"Kasey James to room 2, Kasey James to room 2" hearing my name I stand, they already made me do a urine sample "Do you want me to come in honey?" my mom asks from beside me "no I'll be alright thanks mom" walking down the hallway towards room 2, I knock on the door "come in" opening the door I walk in and sit in front of Dr. Smith his typing something on his computer "Well, Ms James what can I help you with today?" "I've been feeling sick all week and have actually threw up a couple of times and I don't know what's wrong" "Well, we tested your sample and it seems that your pregnant Ms James" I just sit there staring at him thinking this must be a joke I'm only 16 I haven't even finished school and matt's only 17 were not old enough to become parents, I begin to cry "I see that this was not expected would you like me to get your mother from the waiting room?" I just keep my head down and nod indicating that I would like my mom. Dr. Smith leaves the room coming back minutes later with my mom following "I'll leave you two alone for a minute or two" the doctor leaves the office and my mom comes to sit in the seat next to me "what's wrong baby, the doctor said you were upset and needed me to come in here" I just continue to sob when I've finally calmed down enough I look over at my mom who's looking at me with a worried face "what's wrong baby?" "Mom, please don't't hate me" "I could never hate you no matter what" taking a few deep breaths I relax and hug my mom "I'm pregnant" my mom pulls back from hugging me with a face full of worry and disappointment which therefore caused me to start crying "ok sweetie, I'm not angry with you I'm upset but I'm here for you on whatever you decide" "I'm keeping it, it's not their fault me and matt are stupid" my mom stands to go get the doctor back in so we can set up for an appointment to see obstetrician, they come back in sitting down the doctor smiles "your mother informed me that your keeping the child so we have a appointment for tomorrow how does that sound?" looking at my mom because I haven't got my own car yet "yes that's fine what time is the appointment?" "Ten in the morning if that's ok with the both of you, otherwise its next week" "that's fine we will be there" After getting the information we need we head to the car. I'm happy and sad at the same time not knowing what matt is going to say or if I'm going to be able to cope with a baby but I know one thing I won't be getting abortion I'm against them so matt's either with me or not.
The next day me and my mom are sitting at the obstetricians office waiting to be seen, I've tried texting matt but getting no reply now I'm worrying because he never ignores me "mom, matt's still not answering my calls or texts and I've tried loads of times and I'm still not getting anything not a leave me alone or hello nothing I'm so confused right now" "aww sweetie, his probably busy as I said before but saying that there's no excuse for him completely ignoring like he his I'll ring his mom and see what's wrong after your appointment ok?" I don't know what to say so I just nod my head I really wanted him to be here for this it's our child we made together and we should be going through this together. "Kasey James please, Kasey James" I stand waiting for my mom to stand but she doesn't so I look at her "can you come with me, I don't want to do this alone" "Of course sweetie, I'm here for you no matter what you say" walking into the room with the nurse "Please strip down, put the hospital grown on and get up onto the bed I'll be right back" she says smiling as she leaves, I strip my clothes and put on the grown and get up onto the bed and wait for the nurse to return coming back in with a machine which is to help see the baby my mom made me look up being pregnant when we left the doctor's office yesterday. "This is to help us see your baby and see how far along you are in your pregnancy, it's a little cold" the nurse informs us then she puts some gel stuff on my stomach *shit* that's cold she wasn't lying "right, I'm just going to get a few measurements then I will tell you how far along you are" she's clicking for awhile I'm just watching the screen it's amazing that's in my tummy, I'm really happy now but I still wish that matt was here with me we should be happy together "I'll be right back just need to speak to someone" "is everything okay with the baby?" my mom asks getting worried now which makes me worry "yes, everything's fine I will be right back I promise" the nurse says leaving the room I look at my mom confused but she's just as confused, couple minutes later she comes back in with a man I don't know "Hello, my names Dr. Mathews nice to meet you, jasmine here has asked me just to have a look see" sitting down where the nurse was before he does some clicking looking closer at things then starts smiling "Well, nurse jasmine it looks like you were right after all" "excuse me but I would like to know what is going on with my daughter if you don't mind" the doctor turns towards us smiling, that means it's nothing bad right "Well it seems your daughter is 18weeks pregnant and having twins" did he just say what I think he said that's when I black out. "Wake up sweetie, it's okay I'm here" I open my eyes to see my mom standing over me what the hell happened then it's all comes back to me I'm pregnant 18weeks and I'm having twins my breathing changes "breath sweetie, I'm right here just breath" I manage to control my breathing for the first time since I heard the news I have to tell matt his going to hate me "mom?" "Yes sweetie?" not looking at her with tears welling up in my eyes "matt's going to hate me, I've ruined his life we don't just have one with have two babies to look after how are with going to cope we need two of everything" putting my face in my hands I begin to sob "baby, it's going to be fine and I'm here for all of you don't worry about anything me, your dad and brother will be there for you that's what families are for aren't they" "thanks mom and I'm sorry for everything" I say looking up at my mom "sweetie don't worry I will love you always your my baby girl after all, now let's find out where that boyfriend of yours is".
When we got home I called out for my brother "LOGAN!" I listened to see if he was in "Yeah sis?" walking towards the game room I see him with his friends playing pool, he sees my face and comes straight over to me "hey, what's wrong? Whose ass am I kicking? Because you know I will for hurting my little sis, was it matt? I'll kill him" "Logan, calm down and come talk to me for a min" smiling I walk out the room he follows me into the family room where my mom had got my dad as well when everyone was sitting my mom looked at me stating for me to tell them ok here goes nothing "before I tell you both what's wrong you have to promise me not to get mad or do anything stupid and Logan I need you to find out where matt is going to be because his not answering any of my calls and I really need to talk to him" Logan looks at me all confused "yea, I'll find out I think his at Dave's because his having a party there" now it's my turn to frown and be all confused I look at my mom shrugging my shoulders I turn back to my dad and Logan "right here goes nothing" I mutter under my breath "I'm pregnant" my dad and brothers faces are full of shock but that soon changes to anger "what the fuck and matt ignoring you he needs to stand up and be a man" Logan shouted, my dad still wasn't saying a word and I was getting worried "daddy" I say looking at my dad he finally looks at me with the same look my mom did went she found out "I'm sorry daddy" and I start to cry and put my head down "don't cry love bug, I just hate that you've got to go through bringing up a child at your age" "about that daddy" my dad looks from me to my mom wondering what I'm going on about "I'm pregnant with twins" my brother chokes on the drink his drinking and their mouths are open with shock "well we will all be here for whatever you want to do" my dad says smiling between me and my mom "dad, Logan I'm keeping my babies it's one thing to get rid of one but two that's damn right heart breaking and I couldn't live with myself evening if I only had one baby instead of two I don't think I would ever be the same if I did get an abortion" "well little sis it looks like I'm going to be an uncle to the two cutest little kids, wait do you know what you're having yet?" rolling my eyes at Logan I look at my mom and dad smiling at me with proud looks on their faces didn't expect that "no Logan we don't know yet but we will know soon and it explains why I can't fit into any of my clothes but sweats, looks like I need to go shopping for clothes momma" I say to my mom with a grin on my face I do love shopping it's the best thing in the world "so you haven't told matt yet I'm guessing?" that makes my grin disappear.
I turn to my dad "No dad he doesn't and his not answering me but Logan told me where he would be tonight so I'll go there and talk to him if it's ok to borrow the car?" my mom and dad look at each other and my mom nods her head at my dad like they're having a silent conversation between them, I wonder what that's about. "Well you don't need our car love bug" my dad says that just confusing because I don't have a car so how am I suppose to get anywhere without using their car "well baby we was going to wait until your seventeenth to give you this but as your pregnant now we think you should have it now" "what? what have you guys got me?" my mom turns to me smiling now and pulls out her phone looking through it for a minute she stands from the couch and walks over to me showing me a picture I look for a second then my eyes widen in shock and my mouth falls open, because you see when my brother was seventeen he was brought a car because my parents think it's a good age at where we can be save enough to drive and be safe. The picture in front of me was a beautiful car I loved it as soon as I saw it, it's a beautiful white range rover sport I know this because it's the car I've been asking for I've always wanted doesn't matter what year it was I just loved the range rovers where my brother had a mustang 2005 model he loved his car it was his baby and he didn't let anyone but me have a drive and even I could only drive it in certain places "ARRHHHHHHH!!!! You got me CAR!!! LOGAN LOOK THEY GOT MY CAR WOOOHHH!!" I did a happy dance whilst all my family laugh and smiled with me at how excited I was I'm so happy right now no-one could take this away from me "where is it can I drive it now seriously I need to see my baby oh my dear you got me a car" I half shout I'm so excited best present ever. "Baby calm down your car is at your auntie Sue's because we were hiding it from you, your dad and uncle have being putting in safe measures also a brand new sound system just like we did for your brother" "can we go get it tomorrow I really want that car best present ever" I'm smiling from ear to ear then I start to think about how I'm going to tell matt about the babies and wondering if his going to be happy, sad or angry with me and that I've decided to keep the babies just these thoughts I stand "I've got to get ready to go see matt, so can I still borrow your car until we go get mine tomorrow?" "of course honey the keys are on the table by the door just help yourself to them and don't stay out to late your pregnant now your need to be more responsible" "I know mom, I'm only going there to speak to matt then I'm coming back I don't want to stay there" walking off to go get ready for tonight smiling on the way I put my hand to my stomach and speak to my babies "mommy will always protect you and hold you whilst you are sad or happy I love you now and always" I pull out some clothes and start to get ready for tonight.
