Scared to live ; Scared to die

~ Jazz ~

It was so early I barely had 2 secs to figure out what he was asking, quickly I lied. Quickly, I got cursed out. He shouted everything he had to say & I tried yelling back until I saw the look in his eyes. Arguing would be pointless, lieing hadnt gotten me anywhere. He grabbed his things & stormed out the room. Honestly, I wanted him back but I couldnt just chase him. I never would have thought he would say things like that to me but then again he probably thought I would never cheat. I heard a small tap on the door. I knew who it was. " Sis......why ?" Kyla asked. I felt so stupid, the reason why was so dumb I couldnt wrap my head around it. Last night I had left in search of my stalker in lingerie ? Even it didnt sound right to me, " you wouldnt understand " I said pulling on some jeans & leaving her there on the bed. For the first time I shut my best friend out......Damn bruh. It was cold as hell & I didnt even grab my jacket.  Usually I would borrow Quinn's but in this situation I dont think he would like that. I shiver & wipe the mud off my boots. Everything was so played out ! Everything I did was such a whore move. I hadnt gotten anything but beat, hurt, & apart from my friend. I looked around, I have to find Quinn, make this right. Walking out the door I was flushed by a gust of cool wind, I couldn't imagine how helpless Quinn felt. A tear ran down my face  & fell. Why would I do such a thing knowing how much he had already went through. I started down the road something smelled like cologne.