2am Thoughts

Stickers

Back then I feel bad that I get mad at you for wrong reasons. I know I don't have the right to get angry at you before. But now? You're giving me every reason to be mad at you. You're well aware that I have this undying feelings for you no matter what I do but last night you gave me every reason to curse you on your way to hell. It's been three weeks since we last talked then suddenly you sprouted like a mushroom. I definitely have no intention on replying back but I feel bad and replied. You even said a fucking pickup line that would make me go nuts for you all over again. Those three weeks without you made my life peaceful. I never entertained the thought of getting you out of my life because we're friends and I considered you as one of my bests. Then you even sent stickers that says "I love you" in it then you'll say it's just an accident to send that. Fuck you to your roots! Fuck you for being you and for being so fucking handsome. You know that I love you but you're doing this to me. I'm even considering ending my friendship with you but I can't because I still love you despite all this things that you have done to me. Now I confronted you and you won't even read my messages. Fuck you! You can't be honest with your feelings. I know you like her so don't fuck with me. My life's already a bullshit so please just be my friend and stop playing with me. I'm so dumb when it comes to you. I hate and love you at the same time. I can't even sleep last night because of what you sent me. I kept thinking about the what-ifs but I guess you're just one of the fuckboys that I know. Sorry if I offended you but I have to say what is bottled up inside me. I deserve better than this.

(t.g.)