Noemie's POV
F*ck, I'm feeling so damn dizzy. And double f*ck for not finding my keys immediately. Right now, I just want to be with my bed and snor to death. Ayokong maabutan nila Marcus dito with his new girl we just met at the party looking so fucked up and I want to sleep even before they do some churva na maririnig ko.
"Tangina naman oh"
Kinapa ko ng kinapa ang Chanel bag ko at hindi ko talaga mahanap ang lecheng susi ng condo ko. I'm feeling so drunk and sleepy. I must have left it in my car. Why did I drink so hard again? Oh, kasi I just saw Marcus flirting with a potential new girlfriend at the bar. A girl na malaki ang ulo para sa katawan, wearing a skimpy red tube dress that makes me think na sana nag two-piece na lang siya. Siya iyong tipong kapag binastos mo, depende sa mukha ng lalaki iyong reaksyon niya. I'm not judgmental, eh kasi iyon ang nakita ko kanina, when one guy na nognog, pandak at laki sa hirap touched his behind dahil sa ikli ng dress niya, she slapped him. But when she went dancing again, and my ever maniac friend made pisil her behind, she smiled! The flirtiest way! And then ayun, sila na ata agad. And I was left all alone, without my gentleman bestfriend thinking babae akong pwede mabastos. So I drowned myself sa alcohol. Enough with the blabbing, I have to get my keys.
I was about to turn my back from my door to go back to the parking lot when I saw Marcus hand in hand with the cutesy girl I wish I could remember the name while whispering something on her ear. What an eyesore. --_-- She was giggling so loud na parang kiliting-kiliti na siya, so malas naman.
Marcus has been my friend, bestfriend as he may call it since elementary, until highschool. We both finished Architecture, kasi kahit busy iyon sa pambababae, pumapasok naman iyon sa eskwela. We have a firm now. We both love playing video games, DOTA, coffee and pancit canton. We share too many details about our lives (includes his sex life) with each other. But I've got a secret, a secret which may not be a secret to most people around us. I've stopped seeing him as just a friend since 4th year, yes, I, Noemie Marie Castillo, have always been in love with Marcus Johann Montecarlo since then. 6years na pala ang unrequited love ko sa mokong na to.
"Oh Noemie, ba't andito ka pa sa labas?" Tanong ng ulol sa akin while his arms snaked around the girl's waist. Have I told you that our condo units ay tabi lang? Pero trust me, pag may babae to, kahit magkatabi condo namin, malimit kaming mag-usap.
"Oh hi MJ and to you too." I said while waving my hand to the girl. "I left my keys in the car ata, can I borrow your duplicate?" Yes, we do have duplicates in each others units. Ang babaita, biglang sumama ang mukha. Semplangin ko to eh.
"You have keys sa unit nya Hon?" Tanong ng babaitang mukhang monggo kai MJ. Hon? Agad? Lintek talaga damoves ng kaibigan ko. Kailan kaya niya mai-aapply iyon sa akin?
"Oh yes Darlene honey. Noemie's my bestfriend, remember? Don't worry, she's just my friend, and you are my honey." Sagot naman ni MJ sabay halik sa lips nung babae. Naks naman, saksak puso hari ng dugo, patay buhay. Umiiyak ang puso ko't sumisigaw, pati ang isip ko't damdamin ay humihiyaw! Straight to the heart yun ah, pero I composed myself.
I rolled my eyes, "Oh please, utang na loob, I just need the keys, you can continue that landian sa loob. I'm so damn dizzy na. I need to fucking sleep, we need to meet our client tomorrow MJ. You better thrust fast, aryt?"
He chuckled hearing that, kinuha nya yung susi sa bulsa nya and siya na nagbukas sa unit ko. I know how much he likes to fuck around.
"There Noemie, no need to rant. Give me your duplicate sa unit ko, I don't want any disturbances." He said while wiggling his perfect eyebrows and smiled at me. How much I love to see that smile.
"NOEMIE! HOY!" Natauhan ako dun ah.
"Tanga ka ba o tanga lang? Nakalimutan ko nga yung susi sa sasakyan diba? Pssh. Tabi nga dyan, matutulog na ako." Tumawa lang sya at tumabi na sya at hinawakan ulit yung monggo at binuksan na rin ang unit nya.
"Good night MJ, good night monggo." Pagkasabi nun, pumasok na ako at ni-lock yung pinto ko. Haha! Galing ko talaga. I removed my pumps and dived myself into my bed. Antok na ako kanina at duling-duling na, pero seeing him with another girl and knowing he might be kissing her everywhere now keeps me awake.
I stared at the ceiling. Hanggang kailan kaya? Hanggang kailan ko siya mamahalin ng patago? Hanggang kailan ako masasaktan nang dahil sa kanya? Hanggang kailan ako magpapakamartir at magpi-pretend na wala akong nararamdaman para sa kanya? Nakakapagod. I want to stop hurting na. Nakakapagod masaktan ng paulit-ulit. Nakaka-tangina, kaso tanga na ako sa lahat ng tanga, mahal ko pa rin. :(
For a month, sa akin yun dikit ng dikit. Wala kasi siyang makitang babae na papalit pa kay Celine na last girlfriend nya, kung saan inaway ko at nag-pretend na longtime girlfriend ng kurimaw. Another crime perfectly executed, pwede na nga siguro gawan kami ng version ng Criminal Case The Playboy Edition. Kaya ayun, for the meantime ako muna. Sa akin muna siya sweet. But I think now, babalik na naman ako sa pagiging mere kaibigan lang. Yung sa trabaho ko lang siya makakasama. Ako kasi yung meantime girl siguro nya while he's busy looking for his soulmate. Ako yung "muna" sa buhay nya.
Tumagilid ako and saw our picture at the bedside table. We were both wearing blue poloshirts and we both looked happy. He is my happiness and I want to be his happiness too, forever, not just for the meantime. Will that ever happen?
I heard some strange sounds from the other unit. Moans to be specific, a tear escaped from my eye. No, I won't cry anymore. Kinuha ko ang phone ko, plugged in the earbuds, raised the volume and listened to a loud music and closed my eyes.
A/N:
No convos na marami muna for this chapter. It's some sort of introduction sa nararamdaman ni Aja.
If you're reading this, thanks. I'm an amateur and premature writer as well. Hehe.
