One-Shots For-You

Shinei Nouzen x Reader

•Anime 86's Shinei Nouzen x female reader•
Ages: 19

[No Time To Be Upset, Because I Might Lose You Someday]

I'm not a soldier, nor am I capable enough to be one. Though I dread it, I choose to ignore the horrors that loom outside of the Federal Republic of Giad. I'm scared, truly, and I hate that I feel this way.

When I met him, Shinei Nouzen, I never expected that his smile was hiding a deep trauma that chased him relentlessly. Since then, I haven't been able to look at him the same. He's a reminder of all that I've been avoiding— the truth.

"(Y/n)," Shin's thumb caresses my cheek lightly. "Are you upset with me?"

Sitting in silence as I play with my hands underneath the table, I could only pull my gaze away. The light above us dimly lit the bar and the setting sun was our source of light as it pierces the window.

I'm always honest with Shin, and I tell him everything that's on my mind; that's the kind of relationship we have. Not being able to hold it back anymore, I shift my gaze back to lock eyes with him. "Why didn't you tell me sooner? Why did you hide what your 'job' was?" I bit my lip to hold back the tears I could feel welling up in my eyes. "If something were to happen to you— I'm not sure what I'd do without you. You're so special to me." I've had this on my mind for a while after I coincidentally met a friend from his group that told me everything. I felt betrayed by Shinei, the Reaper, for keeping this all a secret.

His eyes widen then soften as he reaches over the bar to pull my hands into his. "You know me well enough to know that I wouldn't give in to death that easily." He pauses, takes a deep breath in and out, then proceeds. "You've given me a reason to keep going, a reason to keep on living. I couldn't leave this world knowing I'd leave you behind."

"That sounds like you're avoiding it..Face me! I trust you, and even now, i still do." My teary eyes are focused on him. I look from his eyes, trailing down his arm, and ending at the hand that is resting on mine. My heart is racing just as it always does around Shin. I'm so in love with him.

"(Y/n), I trust you too, wholeheartedly." Shin's voice always has my heart fluttering. "Please, just give me some more time. I promise I'll explain myself soon."

Even when I feel upset at him, it doesn't last long. His tone puts me at ease and I knew that when he was ready, he'd tell me his whole story. I relax my face and my tears subsided as I wipe my puffy eyes. We sit basking in the stillness unsure of what to say.

Breaking the ice, he lets out a quiet giggle that pulls my attention back up to him. "I can't leave you alone anyway even if you wanted me to- im the only friend you have to bother all the time." He changes the sour mood into a light one so seamlessly, lifting my spirits up.  He turns his head and covers his mouth to prevent me from seeing his smile. It's rare that his stoic expression isn't present and I cherish the moments I get to see this side of him.

I have no time to be upset because I might lose him someday.

I squeeze his hand and rest my head on it, which grabs his attention. "Just this time, I'll let you get away with that comment." I free one of my hands to play with the edge of his scarf. ",but when did I become just a friend, huh?" All the angst I felt weighing me down before leaves and I plaster a sneaky grin.

Shin's small smile drops and he turns his face away from me, hiding a red hue that I can see reached to his ears. I feel myself becoming nervous as I normally tease him this way, but he's always blew it off with a sarcastic remark. In return, I also begin to blush and regret my life choices.  I'm too far in now to stop and frankly, I don't want to.

I get up from my seat on the stool and glide across the floor until I'm lined up behind him on the other side. I place my arms around his shoulders, pulling him into a loose hug. I tuck my head into his neck and I shower him with love. As I predicted, he does indeed blow it off, pushing my face back with the palm of his hand.

"Aww~ come on babe I'm just doing what any good friend would do." I pucker my lips jokingly to his face. Without any time to react, I'm up against the wall.

"Well, best friend, let's have some fun." Shin shows me a new face, one that leaves me in shambles. I am completely speechless. His left hand is pillowing the back of my head from the wall and his right hand finds it's way to my hip with it holding me in place. Without Shin's knee keeping me prisoner, I would have already fallen to the floor with how weak my legs felt and my knees that are already buckling beneath me.

He leans in close as I feel his warm breath tickle my neck. This is bliss for me as I've loved him since we met almost a year ago at a library. I thought I knew him better, but I was dead wrong. Shin is never this out of character, but it's hard to resist him. I close my eyes, allowing myself to give in.

Patiently, I wait and wait, yet nothing is happening. Then the warmth from my waist leaves and is replaced with a hard knock to my forehead. A thump.

I open my eyes and see him letting go as he's putting space between us. Disappointed and embarrassed, I fold my arms over each other and pout. "You don't have to tease me like that!"

Shin throws his arms behind his head to support his neck as he nonchalantly paces the room. He stops in place and lets out a light chuckle then returns to his normal face.

"Think again when you consider trying to tease me like that. Next time, I won't hold back." Shin is aware of what he's doing and is taking pleasure in it for sure.

I stand up to him and close the gap between us. "I'll hold you to that," I back down and lower my voice. ",So don't go dying on me, okay?" I give him the most genuine smile I could muster which yields a smile back from him.

The sun outside has set and the dark sky floods the living room leaving only a silhouette of Shin in front of me. I hesitate to speak as the silence was calming.

"Hey, Shin?"

"Yes?"

"Will you stay the night?"

{FINISH}

Author: hello! Thank you for reading for this short :) I notice a lack of 86 content on wattpad so I took it upon myself to add to that. If you are interested in more then please comment for a part 2!! I have never written smut, but I like a bit of fluff through my stories though If MORE spice is  something you might be interested in then I'll do my best! ;) thank you for reading this far and hope to see you in the next one!!