The One Who Truly Loved Me

A little self Convincing

Confused. That is the only word that she knew how to describe how she was feeling right now. Damn confused. Confusion that had entered into her mind with a foreign feeling. A feeling in which she never has experienced before. Not to her knowledge anyways but whatever it was. Whatever this feeling was she liked it and that was the problem. What was this feeling? This feeling that just wouldn't go away as she sat in silence looking down towards the floor. This feeling that would not allow her to get any sleep. Not allow her mind to be at peace. A mind that desperately needed to be at peace for some time.

But now was not the time and it was driving her crazy. So crazy that she now finds herself strolling down the sidewalk of a familaur neighborhood with her hands tucked firmly inside of her coat pockets.

A scene that many would not expect from her. Especially once they heard her name. Jackie Burkhart. Labeled as the spoiled rich princess by many. Well those that she had labeled to just be the jealous types. Afterall it wasn't easy being her. Wasn't easy having to play her role so perfectly. The role that many expected from her. Having the fancy new dresses before anyone else. Driving the newest model cars her father had just purchased fresh out of the dealership. Bring the captain and leader of the cheer squad. Oh she could go on and on. But her more recent title was one that she was not proud of. Not anymore anyways. The title of Michael Kelso's girlfriend. A title that she held proudly for so long. Would have held for so longer but now? Now after everything that he has done she was truly disgusted. Disgusted of even having that title. Of even letting that boy ever touch her. But he wasn't important right now. Not now and would never be again in her life. No what was important right now was this feeling. This feeling that just doesn't want to go away despite her wishes. This feeling that just makes her want to tear her hair out and let out a scream of frustration.

But she wouldn't do that. She wouldn't let out a scream. Not during this time of night. She may be considered spoiled. Heck maybe even a rotten individual to some others but that didn't mean she didn't have any manners. Didn't have any values. That being said she would just have to settle for the alternative. Letting out a scream in her head as she stares daggers forward down the darkened sidewalk.

I'm so confused!? What is this feeling!? Damn it! Why did he have to say all of those sweet things to me!?

" That's because he was speaking the truth."

Hearing a voice silently coming from behind her feeling her heart racing in a sudden move instantly Jackie snaps her body around before suddenly her eyes go slightly wide at what she sees.

" Oh no not you again."

The last person that she wanted to see at this very moment. An almost carbon copy of herself staring back at her. An illusion that had visited her once during her darkest times. Well she considered it to be her darkest time. She did just break up with her boyfriend after all. This copy of herself that just glares over towards her with her arms crossed over her chest just staring directly at her not blinking. Not moving. Not even so much as letting out a breath. A sight that would terrify anyone if the real her was to do this to anyone. But to her? The look this illusion was giving her was getting on her last nerves really quick and she only just got here!

" Yes it's me again you little twit. We wouldn't be having this conversation if you just listened to me last time but nooo you had to get back together again with Michael. How could you be so stupid!?"

Unable to keep her eyes from going as wide as saucers trying her best to ignore the heat coming from her cheeks returning the glare for a couple of seconds turning on her heels slowly Jackie starts to stalk away back down the darkened sidewalk trying to ignore the pair of eyes that she can feel following her with every step she takes.