With The Sun I Will Rise

relapse

Sick of planing each of my battles for what it would take to move forward
Scared that no matter the efforts I'll always stay cornered
Lost in thoughts - like 'how could i ever learn to control them'
Sink deeper into the toll of 'what if i never learn to destroy them'

Tired of kicking myself to the kurb just to prove my worth
Can't ever tell if identity changed for better or worse
Took me a year to feel stable but now that shit might just throw me back to the cable