The Love You'll Never Return ||KuroKen||

|Epilouge|

A year or so passed and Kuroo was now in college but he still wasn't able to get over his best friend's sudden death.

He was upset.

He was confused.

He had so many questions.

Such as, how it happened?

The rooster head asked Kenma's parents, he asked Hinata, he asked Yaku, Lev, basically anyone he could think of who was close to Kenma, but they either didn't know or refused to answer his questions.

He was getting tired of asking.

He was getting tired of living without his best friend.

They knew each other since they were eight, for fuck's sake!

So one day, when he was on a break for the semester, Kenma's mother contacted him, asking if he could come over for dinner.

He was hesitantnt for a minute or so, but he still agreed.

Kenma's house was like his second home. Or used to be, anyway. So of course he'd agree.

When he got there, however, things were a little awkward for the three of them. But as time passed and the dinner went on, they kind of eased into it and started talking.

They all lost a part of them that night.

For Kuroo, he lost his best friend, someone who knew him best. Someone who he could talk to without worrying the other would judge. Someone he was very close too and who he cared for the most in this world.

And for the other two, they lost their son. Their only child who they cared for the most in the world, too..

At the end of the dinner, Kenma's mother handed Kuroo and envelope, tears in her eyes. "I think this is for you, Tetsuro.."

Kuroo glanced at the envelope, taking it gently, as if it would break into a million pieces upon his touch. He turned back to the mother and thanked her, for the item and the dinner.

She just smiled at him and he was on his way back home.

He wondered what was in the envelope so as soon as he was back in the comfort of his small room, he opened it to find a letter inside.

Tossing the envelope aside, he unfolded the paper to find Kenma's messy handwriting.

He froze staring at the paper in his hands, just sitting there on the cold bedroom floor, his back against the bed.

He shook his head to snap him out of whatever trance he was in before starting to read the contents of the letter.

Hey, Kuroo. If you're reading this, I'm probably dead.

You must be confused. Have some many questions. Like why? Or how did it happen?

Kuroo chuckled, even when Kenma was dying, possibly on his death bed too, he still knew how Kuroo was going to feel about all of this.

Kuroo continued reading with a slight smile on his face.

Well.. how do I tell you this? I was diagnosed with Hanahaki about a month ago. Crazy, right? The disease we thought was fictional, is in fact real. And I didn't want to undergo surgery because.. I don't want to forget you.

I have had feelings for you since we meet, basically. I'm sorry I didn't tell you went I could've.. it's just.. you were so happy with Alisa I didn't want to ruin it and I was afraid you might hate me. But now, there's nothing to worry about.

So.. I love you, Kuroo Tetsuro.. I love you so much it hurts. It hurts seeing you with someone else. It hurts knowing that I won't be able to have you like she is.

Please, don't blame yourself for this. I chose this and you wouldn't be able to change my mind even if you tried.

I love you so much, Kuroo. Please remember that,

Sincerely, Kenma.

As Kuroo read this, he felt as if there was a lump stuck in his throat. He let out a sob and fresh tears fell on the paper, along with Kenma's old and already dried ones.

He loved him?

Kenma loved him and Kuroo was to stupid to realize!

How stupid was he?!

Dammit, he should've noticed something!

But that's just how life was sometimes.

Sometimes we don't notice how someone feels even if it's spelled out in front of our eyes. Sometimes we are too into out own life, our own pride, our own love, to notice what's happening around us.

And when we do notice, it might be too late, but that's okay.

It's okay because we are all humans.

It's okay because we might get a chance in the next life, or the life after that, either way, we might get a chance one day, that we won't screw up.

And that's what Kuroo was hoping to get.

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Hi, this is the end of this crappy story. I don't know why it took me so long to finish, guess I'm just lazy af. But I really appreciate you reading it nonetheless. :D

That's all I have to say, bye,byee! And remember, you are beautiful just the way you are <3