hii ! honestly the holidays have been treating me rlly good and new years eve was yesterday ofc and i had a lott of food.
from two bowls of enchilada soup with two tortillas, two waffles, a caramel frappe, a croissant, and four brownies plus a tonnn of soda. jesus, i was really stuffed not to mention high as well so i didn't notice till my stomach started to hurt😅
i also stepped on the scale before eating and it was 181 so i guess christmas really made me gain considering i was jus 179. after eating the scale read 182 and i was shocked because im getting closer to my goal of 185 so quickly. everything is starting to fit tighter too- especially my under clothes🥲 i got new victoria secret underwears and they're so pretty but so tight.
not to mention that my belly just hangs over the front and pulls them down on the sides. I dont want to have to go up a size and return them(plus i already took off the tags) so i guess they're just a bit tight...i think it could've been from the dryer tho so it could be that!
recently this past week i was looking at some old pictures of when i first started posting and...i think ive gotten a bit thicker...
i mean i always dreamed of gaining weight but was scared of others opinions and now that im away from public school i feel more confident with my new gain. i mean its my body and i only get one of them so why not do whatever makes me happy in life- and thats stuffing my face with food almost everyday😅
i tried on a pair of jeans recently as well and i think its gonna be time for me to go up from a 12 to a 14💔 the buttons are starting to get rlly tight especially on my skinny jeans (and my thighs putting a hole in them) so its baggy jeans for now. and honestly its rare for me to wear jeans to work bc we dont have to. so leggings and sweatpants have been my best friends as of now.
also- just wanted to say that im not exactly looking for a spouse as of now. im honestly just interested in becoming friends with other feedees and possibly feeders, im not rlly lookin for anythin too serious (unless i just rlly click with you) or long distanced.
in conclusion; this year has made me blow up in many ways.
this was me in april:
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me in december:
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