I despise you ♥ (Edmundxreader)

Chapther 5

Slight fast forward cuz i said so

We had stolen the telmarines boat so we would have a faster way of transportation. Little guy in front with the blond guy who thinks he's the prince of england... oh wait, whatever. Susen was sitting in front of me with Lusy. I did want to sit with her but Lusy was faster to get on the boat, so I was stuck sitting beside Edmund.

Whatever, I'm not mad, it's fine.

So I was sitting on a boat for probably the first time in my life. It's fine, I'm fine. It was kinda pretty, the view I mean like the way the sun hit water, making it look almost golden. It was nice.

I was still a bit freaked out both with the whole "Narnia" thing but also just now the boat thing. My one hand was holding on to the edge of the boat like i was going to fall off if i let go, and my other hand was firmly holding onto the bench thingy i was sitting on.

I wasn't listening to the conversation they were having, not that I cared, it was just gonna raise more questions anyway. But when I was looking out over the side of the boat onto the golden waters, I felt a strange warmth on my other hand, the one holding onto the edge of my seat.

Looked to the side and saw Edmunds hand on mine, I then looked up at him. He was facing the other side of the boat, so I couldn't see his face. So I looked back at the water on my side. I didn't move my hand, and neither did he.

I suddenly noticed how tense my hand had been. I wondered if he'd noticed. I calmed down, letting my hand melt to the warmth of his and slowly relaxing my grip on the boat.

Dude why the hell is his hand so soft what the heck. Has this man never done a day of work or something?

Looking at the water in the lake dancing about, bouncing with the wind. I didn't move my hand and he didn't move his. I wasn't sure if this meant he liked me or that i liked him, though im sure that i didn't like him, confident even.

As the bout moved I felt the warmth of his hand on mine, I pondered if I should move it or not, and i didnt want to. The nerves were sneaking up on me. I felt my neck getting sweaty and my face felt warm. I swiftly turned my head to the side so no one could see my most likely beetroot colored face.

I noticed my hand was also getting sweaty. oh god what will he think, does he know? Can he even tell? Maybe I should just take my hand back.

I didn't. At least for a minute or two. I just sat there feeling my stomach turn. Not because of the waves in the water holding us up, but rather the fact that on my hand was my best friend's brother's hand, and added to the fact that we are literally in a different supposedly magical world hanging out with a small? Dwarf? Man thing. Apparently not a human, I guess.

Whatever. If i just stop thinking about it it will be less confusing, or at least that's the mindset i'm going for.

After about fifteen minutes of contemplating whether or not to move my hand. I was beginning to feel a slight tug at my hand as he gently wrapped his hand around mine, actually holding it.

I try my diggity darndest to not think too hard about it, and slowly turn my hand around to properly hold his.

If I wasn't sweating before I certainly was now. The upside to this is that now I can't entirely tell if it's my sweat so he probably can't either.

I was still facing the water and I think it's fair to assume he's doing the same. I think it's too late to pull my hand back now right. But I don't think I hate this.

Another fifteen minutes went by before Lusy was practically bursting out of her seat, screaming "the shore! The shore! Look, look we're almost at land!" she was pointing and turned around to face us.

And like clock work we both pulled our hands apart. I tried to naturally place my hand in my lap so as to not look stiff. Him on the other hand just put his hand on the side and held onto the bench.

She looked puzzled at us, I didn't know why before I looked at Edmund for the first time on this boat ride, and he looked like he had just committed a bloody murder. His face was red and I mean abnormally red for a while, before becoming flushed he looked mortified.

Thank heavens that she chose not to ask questions, because I have no clue how he would have explained that.

A/N: hiiiii... sooo i lied how have you been for the past couple of months. As an apology I wrote some little fluff and it's extra long today woo! I mean it's not that much longer but still.

I know that there are only like 5 of you but you are aloud to tell me how you feel about it so far so I can know whether or not to keep writing. So yeah, slay. Also happy new year lol.