Letters For My Dearest

i think i'm falling (again)

i've been dreaming these dreams

dreaming of things that make me lose my head

i've been feeling these things

feeling these feelings that make me wanna be dead

i don't know what to say

these talking heads often get me to shred

i'm on my deathbed

gasping and choking on the dread i bled

no tears to shed

sew up your wound with the needle and thread

i've been thinking these thoughts

thinking these thoughts whether i'll be really a loss

i've been feeling so rough

i don't really wanna do this anymore

nothing's enough

can't keep hiding it under key and lock

my throat's in knots

my bones are decaying and my flesh's rot

i'm falling in love

falling in love with the things i'm sick of

i've been creeping upon

the corners of madness trying to sink my teeth on

whatever that won't

make me confront what makes me so wrong

i'm just a pawn

drag me wherever just don't lose me before dawn

time just ticks on

i think i might die and i'm not even twenty one

my life's a con

i wonder if the laugh-tracks'll stop when i'm gone

i've been meaning to go

go somewhere my shadow can't follow

but i'm thinking, oh no

i can't escape myself even if i tiptoe

you'll find me below

swallowing dirt and cultivating meadow

i think you might know

i lost my glow, i can't take another blow

so i'll lay low and i'll

befriend the vultures, befriend the crows