EPIPHANY

PART I

The air began to slip in the silence of dawn, the sun was a little embarrassed to show itself, even though the birds shouted to welcome its arrival, while giving a sign that there were many goals to be achieved.
          I fixed the bag that was leaning on my small shoulder, while carrying several books in hand, humming a little enjoying the morning air that had not been polluted by pollution. Occasionally I smile friendly with people passing by in the corridors of my school. It's not too crowded yet, because it's still fairly early for them to go to school. Unless of course I'm already in 12th grade and I have two best friends, namely Jevan and Gavin. I consider them like my own brothers but I'm only in the same class as one of my best friends. Because the other one was in the superior class, he was really smart, he couldn't imagine that he was in that class.
           "Wow..... why did you come? What are you doing in my class?" I accidentally caught Jevan who was going out of my class. But why did he come so early? He even left my class. "I asked in my heart."
"Eh..... you've come already, who are you going with Aletha?" asked Jevan back.
"I went to take the bus earlier, I answered."
"Loh..... you didn't go with Gavin?" said Jevan.
"I shook my head slowly."
"Why?" Ask Ivan
"It's okay." John smiled faintly.
But a few steps, I pulled Jevan's arm. Ish..... Why the rush anyway? I just met you, I miss you! Oh yeah, where were you last night, how come I couldn't be contacted by my grunt. Actually, it's not usual to see Jevan difficult to contact. But last night, Jevan was very difficult to contact. This bench is very strange. Jevan ruffled my hair slowly and he slightly matched my height, because I'm shorter than him.
"I have a class picket, so I have to hurry back to my class. Let's go to the canteen together," he continued. I, who was sullen, smiled again.
"Okay! Go straight to class! Beware of lying." I replied.

Jevan laughed making my feelings warm. Then he stepped away, leaving me alone who was still smiling at Jevan's flat back. I don't blame if I like Saha...
“Bughhhh!!”
I jerked softly because suddenly my shoulder was nudged a little strong. I turned around, got one of my classmates with an innocent face.
"Uh, sorry. Not on purpose," he said. That's Lamy
"Yes, you don't have to hit my shoulder that hard."
"Who told you to stand at the door." Lami looked at me like she underestimated me?
"Yes, the road is still wide, why do you have to hit people, on purpose right?" I snorted.
"Why? Sick? Just like that, it hurts, it's really weak, "he blasphemed.
Why is this Lami? What's wrong with him? My feelings have never been looking for trouble with him, but why does he even seem like he doesn't like me.
"Hey, what are you doing in front of the class like this? Where's his face on sour? Gavin interjected, I made sure he had just arrived.
Lami rolled her eyes lazily and immediately looked away leaving us both. Why is that kid? Gavin asked surprised.
"I don't know either, suddenly it's not clear."
"Hah? It's not clear how?" Gavin asked dumbfounded.
"He's not doing anything right?" I shook my head slowly.
"No, I'm fine."
Gavin heaved a sigh of relief, "Okay, let's go in then Mr. Adi will come." Then we both entered the classroom and attended lessons as usual.
         The recess bell rang five minutes ago. Gavin and I were waiting for Jevan in the classroom. In my class only a few people left, because the others had scattered to the cafeteria. In the remaining class, Hendra, who is chatting with Hana, is Rendi, who is having fun playing games with Caca, and lastly, there is Lami.
"Eh, how long have you been waiting?" Jevan's voice broke my reverie.
"I don't have a problem, but wh-" I quickly covered Gavin's mouth.
"What the heck?!" I whispered.
Jevan looked at me and Gavin alternately, "What's wrong?"
I took my hand from Gavin's mouth.
"Nothing really."
"Okay, let's just go to the canteen now, come on Je!
  I immediately grabbed Jevan's hand with enthusiasm, ignoring Jevan.
Gavin grumbled softly behind me and Jevan.
"Gini really has a friend who sucks."
I turned quickly to Gavin while widening my eyes. Cautiously if later Gavin will talk more than this.
"What?!" snapped Gavin.
"Looking to die huh?!" I said.
"Well, try here, we'll see who wins."
"Empty hands if brane!"
He turned my body around with one movement. "It's dizzy to see you guys arguing all the time, it's better if you use your mouth to eat it."
We arrived at the canteen, it wasn't too crowded because there wasn't just one canteen at my school. So our school canteen is not
never really full like other schools.
They sat on one of the chairs and a little away from the crowd. "I ordered food first." I said and immediately left them both.
It didn't take long, I was already sitting at the table again with Jevan and Gavin, but Jevan was even busy playing on his cell phone and occasionally showed a worried face?
"Hey Jev, where were you last night?" Gavin asked breaking the silence.
"Nowhere," replied John.
Strange... he said he wasn't going anywhere, but last night he didn't come to my house with Gavin. And even if he said he didn't want to come to my house, he would have told me or Gavin where he was going.
But last night Jevan really had no news.
"Really? Then why don't you come to All's house with me?"
John pressed the power button on his phone and backed away
the thin object into the pocket.
"I have business." Gavin and I looked at each other, as if our thoughts were the same. Okay, this is the third awkwardness, after last night Jevan, who was difficult to contact.
Second, he suddenly walked out of my class really early in the morning. And thirdly he just said that to us?
What's this? Is Jevan trying to hide something from us? To be honest, this is really not Jevan.
"Jev."
The three of us turned to the source of the sound. I'm speechless. Again That's Lami.
"Jev"
I tugged at his shirt slowly but enough to make Jevan stop his steps. Then he looked at me completely, "Why?"
"Um...th-that's.."
Damn, suddenly nervous attacked me. I gasped softly because Jevan was holding my shoulder making our distance thin, I looked up to see him who was also looking at me.
"Sorry.. "
Huh?
Suddenly?
"You mean?"
Jevan sighed until it felt in every inch of my face. "Sorry I didn't play at your house last night, I-I really have business," he said.
My heart has collapsed if Jevan is like this.
"And maybe from now on, I'll rarely play with you."
I see... My hunch has been right all along.
"Why? Usually you are with me 24 hours.", I muttered.

Jevan hugged my small body.
Now we are on the rooftop. I pulled him after he talked to Lami. Even though my curiosity is great, I want to know what they are talking about, but I have to know who I am.
"Maybe I won't say it now, or maybe you'll find out for yourself later," he said.
Jevan while stroking the top of my head, making my body shiver.
"Je..." I called out in a very sad voice. "You're not going anywhere okay," I begged.
Then Jevan took off his arms and saw my face which was red from holding back tears.
"I'm not going anywhere, but why did you say that cake?"
I looked away, avoiding eye contact with him.
"You have to promise first!"
"Alleta Marwa" collapsed already hearing his deep voice. "Look at me."
Jevan cupped my face, making me have to meet his sharp eyes.
"W-what?
"Why do you say that?" still with his deep voice, Jevan seemed to be angry with me.
I bit my lip, now I really want to cry.
"You know, do not you-"
My throat constricted, as if I couldn't finish the sentence. "You know, I don't have anyone else besides you and Gavin." I whispered.
John let out a sharp breath.
"Remember Alleta, don't say anything else." he insisted.
"Miscellaneous?" I frowned. "I just ask you to always be by my side Je, nothing more and nothing less."
"Ара?"
Jevan asked in a flat tone and removed his hand from my face, Jevan took one step back.
"Ha?"
"Is there something you're hiding from Jevan behind me?"
  BLAM!
I feel numb, don't tell Jevan you know about "What do you mean?" I asked back.
"Isn't it you, it's you who was hiding, last night you didn't come. Then you couldn't be contacted, what did you do when you left my class this morning?"
For some reason, I suddenly became emotional. Hearing Jevan who seemed to accuse me like that, it felt really bad.
"Alleta Marwa..!"
Drtt Drtt.
Jevan fumbled for his cell phone in his shirt pocket, then he opened a message that came in on Jevan's cell phone, I don't know what the contents of the message were.
He rubbed his face in exasperation and then put the phone back in his pocket.
"Go home later with Gavin, I can't drive you. And now I have to get off."
"But Je-"
Before I could finish my words, he just left me. Alone.
“Je….Please….”

"Let's go home,"
I'm still shaking. Until my body jerked softly because Gavin put his arm around my shoulder.
"Why else? What's the matter again?" he asked.
I just shook my head slowly. "Jevan again?"
Actually, you don't need to say what's on my mind, because basically Gavin can already guess it all.
"Do I need to tell Jevan, so he will realize?"
I immediately turned to Gavin.
"Big noooo!" I shouted. "Please, vin, I really don't want to ruin our friendship."
"Yeah, how long are you going to go on like this?
Where will he be sensitive to you,
Gavin Putra isn't really sensitive to people, but I'm very grateful for that other trait. Because he can't see how I feel about him.
I sat up, looked down at my white shoes.
"It's better like this, at least it doesn't damage the relationship between the three of us."