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DILEMMA

"Just promise me that you'll think about it." Said Liam as he opened the door to the study for me to pass and head out.
"Of course "I agreed with a slight bow
"I can't wait to see you tomorrow at the ceremony, save me a dance "he requested and kissed the back of my hand. I just curtsied with a smile then walked away, I could feel Liam's eyes on my back until I disappeared down the hallways and entered my room. As soon as I shut the door behind me I leaned against it and closed my eyes, trying to calm down and recollect my thoughts. I couldn't believe Liam was really willing to break the alliance he had formed just to have me as his Queen, was this really happening? This was bigger than me, I would be in the middle of a conflict between two great kingdoms.
"What did he want?!" An angry voice jerked me out of my thoughts and I opened my eyes only to find Hakeem sited on my bed, I hadn't even noticed him when I entered.
"What now?" I asked wearily, I really was getting tired of his antics.
"I saw him take you to his study. What did he want? "He questioned and got up from the bed, walking towards me menacingly but I wasn't going to get intimidated that easily.
"I am exhausted and I want to rest.please excuse me" I said, beckoning for him to leave as I walked to where Kiki had laid out a nightgown for me.
"I am not going anywhere, am spending the night here with you"
I heard Hakeem say and my mouth fell open, I was caught off-guard and it rendered me speechless. He was what??. I remained frozen in place as he walked up until my back was pressed against his chest.
"You are my wife after all "he spoke in a whisper as his hand trailed down my hand sending me chills I didn't want to feel but couldn't help feeling. "I think it's time I really claimed what's mine "as he was saying this his other hand was unzipping my dress.
"Please... Don't.. "My voice came out cracked and it was barely audible.
"why not?"He asked as he leaned in and started kissing my now bare shoulder blades making me involuntarily close my eyes.
"Not.. Here.. Now "I tried to protest but his trail of kisses down my back was confusing me and I couldn't speak out.
Hakeem then knelt down ,his hands on my waist, he turned me around so that I could face him, my dress was just resting around my waist but my breasts were hiding behind a corsette . I looked down at him wondering what he was up to when he suddenly pulled up my dress and put his head under it. I gasped and put my hand on his head as I felt him pull down my underwear then kissed me lightly, his breath fanning my flower and making my body feel heated.
"Hakeem. Please.. "I was trying to make him stop because Liam's palace didn't seem like the appropriate place for us to consummate our marriage and I knew he was just doing it to mark me as his own then continue playing games with me.
Hakeem wasn't listening to my whispered pleas but parted my petals with his hands then licked me at the very center, I bit my lower lip to stop me from making a sound but when he licked around my clit teasingly I couldn't help moaning in pleasure. Hakeem was determined to make me lose my mind with his scandalous tongue and hands. Before long I was moaning and gasping as my fingers dug into his head and my knees started weakening, was he really going to do this?.
Hakeem continued what he was doing until I felt my body tighten and then I shouted out loud as I climaxed and he licked me. Feeling drained and weak, I staggered back then slumped down on the floor, I couldn't believe the experience I had just had. Hakeem crawled towards me with a grin then pushed me down on my back on the soft carpet which felt like I was sleeping on a cloud, so fluffy and smooth like silk. He pulled down my dress and left me completely naked then parted my legs and positioned his lower body between them.
I found myself unable to look him in the eye as his fingers drew circles on my stomach while his lips leaned in the curve of my neck and started kissing me.
"Hakeem.. "I softly called out his name
"Mmmmmm" he grunted and continued with the kisses.
"If I ran away would you come after me or would you let me go ?"
I know it was a bad time to ask but I really needed to know, his answer would probably help me make a decision.
Hakeem tensed up and stopped kissing, his head emerged from the curve of my neck and he looked down in my eyes.
"Are you planning on running away? "He asked me and I swallowed hard then broke eye contact but couldn't respond. "You're not going anywhere, you made a vow to be by my side until death... "He spoke then leaned in to kiss me again.
"I can't continue living like this Hakeem.. It's torture and I feel a piece of me die everyday I wake up in that palace and see you with her, you never even gave me a chance, you never gave us any chance at all. But I understand, you love her and that's all that matters to you, but please set me free from this trap, I can't take it for much longer "I pleaded with him and tears flowed down my cheeks, at the sight of my tears Hakeem seemed to soften up. He wiped my tears with his thumb then kissed the spot where they had fallen.
He then sat straight and dragged me up, making me lay down my head on his laps as he pulled a bedcover from the bed and covered my nakedness. He then started rubbing my back in comfort as I took in deep breaths until I calmed down, laying there was really comforting and for the first time I felt like Hakeem really cared, or maybe even loved me. After everything that had happened I was still holding on to little hope that he may love me.
"I can't let you go Kira "his words came out soft and yet they pierced my heart "and I can't love you the way you want me to love you... you just have to accept that "he said as his fingers ran through my hair.
"Why can't you let me go?" I had to know, if he couldn't love me what was the point in keeping me around?.
"Because you're mine, and I need you .."he told me.
He needed me? Why did he need me? Amina had been making great progress with the lessons and she was showing she could be able to rule by his side, isn't that what he wanted?. I turned so that I could look up into his eyes and he seemed a tard sad, or maybe I was just seeing what I wanted to see, I wanted him to be sad with Amina so that he could need me.
"Liam is willing to fight you "I informed him and a grin appeared on his face.
"With which army? "He asked with laughter in his voice.
"He's very rich Hakeem, he will pay other armies to come to his aid and make one great army..."
Liam hadn't actually told me that but I needed to see Hakeem's reaction and he frowned.
"He wouldn't dare.. My father won't let him "he spoke harshly
"Your father is content with Amina, you love her, she's pregnant and her trainings have started paying off. The king will gladly banish me to avoid bloodshed and keep the alliance and Liam will welcome me with open arms " I told him and from the look on his face he knew I was right, the king wouldn't indulge him and go to war because of his foolish decisions and selfishness, the king had nothing to lose by my departure.
"Stop saying that, let's just go to bed "he said and furiously got up.
I guess he really was spending the night in my room. For the first time I slept in my husband's arms and it was so peaceful and nice, but I knew better than to get attached, Hakeem had mood swings I couldn't keep up with.