𝐓𝐫𝐮𝐬𝐭 𝐦𝐞 | 𝐄𝐯𝐚𝐧 𝐏𝐞𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐬

45

Chapter forty five: Blood

Trigger warning

I laid restlessly turning in my bed with sweat dripping down my forehead and down my back. The feeling of pain lingering deep within my belly became intense whilst I clutched onto the hurting area to relieve some pressure. A wetness then seeped down my legs onto the bed sheets which made my heart stop for a brief second.

I moved my hand down and then raised my fingers up to see what was going on with me. "What's going on" I cried desperately to myself as I sat up in a panic; the light from the bedroom window illuminating the colour of the liquid still trickling down my thighs.

Blood, crimson droplets danced across my pale finger tips and the once cream bed sheets. The pain soared through me and made me bite down on my lower lip. I was so confused about what was happening to me.

This didn't feel like a normal period, instead it made nausea coat my insides and pain burn through my entire pelvic region and lower back. The blood was thick and goopy, it felt like a never ending amount.

I hazily pushed my body off the bed with my legs wobbling underneath me. I needed to go to the bathroom and see what was happening, maybe try and figure out if this needed medical attention. Suddenly a massive pain shuddered my body that made me fall to the floor on my knees with a yelp.

This seemed to have made quite a large bang and I hoped I hadn't woken Evan up. I didn't want him to see me like this; it looked like a murder scene which was embarrassing enough.

Pondering on, I tried to remember when I last had my period but it felt like it had been several months since then which wouldn't make any sense. My last period was around 5 weeks after Evan left for Los Angeles which would now be two months ago. But I never missed a period so this made a harsh, heart rendering realisation fall upon me that I hadn't noticed due to stress.

I was having a miscarriage. I was pregnant with Henry's baby.

Crying out in pain and heartbreak I cradled my body on the floor as I couldn't attempt standing up again. I didn't know what to do so I laid there, waiting for a miracle and hoping if I was pregnant that this baby would be a fighter.

"oh my god Maeve!" Evan hollered as he ran over to me and peeled me off the floor "what is going on, are you okay? I heard a bang and you crying"

I paled in colour and nodded lowly though I was still riddled in agony which made me dig my nails into Evan's arm. "E-Evan I think I need to go to hospital" I whimpered.

**

Hospital lights beamed across my tired eyes, I had an IV in my arm to give me fluids and a soft look spread across Evan's face as he stared intently at me.

"You had me worried there" he murmured, his hand going to mine and lacing our fingers together. "Did I pass out?" I asked as I couldn't recall any memories from getting to the hospital.

"Yeah you did, the blood loss sent your body into shock" he said with a sad tone "M-Maeve did you know about the baby?"

Tears fell from my eyes and I uncontrollably began to sob into my pillow. I was correct and I was pregnant with Henry's baby as the timing wouldn't make it Evan's. This made me feel so guilty.

"N-no I didn't" I croaked "I haven't even being thinking about my period and I must of forgot" my hands began to shake from adrenaline as I remembered the reason I was in hospital. The blood- the pain.

"It's okay, I'm here for you alright ?" Evan replied with caring eyes. "Im going to look after you" I wiped my eyes and nodded towards him. I was very thankful to have Evan still wanting to be around me after he most likely knew this baby wasn't his either.

"The doctor would like to speak to you. Did you want me to stay here?" Evan asked me with apprehension.

"I want you to stay.. I don't think it's going to be good news" I sobbed with my heart shattering in my chest. "There was too much blood. This baby isn't alive anymore"

They say you know your body best and deep down in the pit of my stomach I could tell something was different.

"Maeve we are so glad you're awake" the doctor who's name is David greeted with a clipboard gripped to his chest. "We need to have a discussion about what happened, is that okay?"

I nodded but in reality I didn't want to know the severity. I wanted to get on with my life and wash this down the drain like some bad nightmare.

"It seems you were around seven weeks pregnant. We are so very sorry but unfortunately you suffered a miscarriage. We have loads of support we can send in your direction with multiple services"

The doctor continued to talk but my mind was blanking it out; my ears not wanting to take in any more information. It feels strange mourning over a baby that I never knew about, but it felt like I lost apart of me.

I felt Evan's grip on my hand increase "did you understand everything I've told you?" The doctor asked gently. I smiled weakly; though it was forced. "Yep, I understand. When can I go home?"

"You may go home today after we fill in your discharge papers"

Smiling falsely again I replied "great. Thanks doc"

The doctor then left which left an unnerving silence between me and Evan and to be totally honest I wasn't ready to talk about it.

"I'm so so sorry Maeve" Evan apologised "if you need anything please let me know. I want to help you"

I shook my head and numbly caressed my belly that was now empty, tears now pouring with no emotion down my cheeks. "I just want to be left alone" my words were cold, but my heart felt like it had been twisted.

Evan nodded and swallowed saliva harshly "I'll grab a coffee and be back up- I'm not leaving you"

Evan left me in the loneliness of my own comfort; the only sound that could be heard was the hammering of my chest and the beeping of machines from surrounding rooms. Henry and I were going to have a baby; this very reality was a mix of emotions and I knew it would break his heart once I told him.

"I'll always love you my Angel baby" I whispered towards my belly.