Another Year

Day one

November 16, 2022

I'm in love...

Not like hardcore in love

But the start of being in love

like every time I see him I get butterflies

I smile when I see him

And he is just so cute!

We are going on our first date soon in four days to be exact

We are going to the aquarium and then to get dinner

We work together but we won't be working in the same area soon so no co-worker kissing especially not on the grounds, well maybe a kiss or two

Did I tell you he's cute he's got a light scruff on his chin and a lopsided smile he has blue eyes and he is a tall boy and it's cute he's got a derpy look when he thinks others aren't looking

But I'm scared

Scared I'll fuck it up

Scared I will be with him and be who I was with my ex...

Love is scary

And I don't want to hurt anyone

Thank goodness for therapy tho hopefully she can help

He is just so cute and I want to make sure I write it out so I know I loved him and he knows I love him if I ever let him read this

He fits into my dream you know my secret little one

Where I picture my happy two-kid family where I come home and see them and we live in a cozy house not in a big city but not in the middle of nowhere he wants kids pretty bad and he is sweet enough that I know he would treat my kiddos right

It's a silly little dream but I like to think about it I like to think about him kissing me too I didn't do that with my ex that's for sure haha I'm fact I hated his kisses 

I think I will like Mr. sweet hicks kiss's though I hope he kisses me at the end of the date or makes it official I hope he holds my hand during the date too ah okay I'm cool