7 of Janurary of 2023
Alr I need an introduction I think 💀
Uhhh there's 5 friends ig- A, F, D, C and E to not dox them but just using their inicials. Actually D's inicial is also F but it would get confusing.
A- toxic, rude, but actually sensible when it comes to like, emotional problems and stuff, met 2022
F- REALLY kind and we actually share the same interests in vocaloid, proseka and genshin so yeah Ily F, Became friends in 2020
D- actually really nice and kind, but when gets mad she gets MAD. Became friends in 2022
C- new girl, she is just too nice man 😭😭 met in 2022
E- violent as hell ngl, im starting to get tired of her cuz she hits me man, met in preschool so yeah that's a long time.
So basically A is a kind of toxic friend and she is very rude to everyone, ESPECIALLY me. She ended up just stopping being friends with us and we took her out of the group. The other girls were still my friends, especially F and C. BUUUT C started talking to A again and me too i guess, I just wanted to stay by her side bc she's such a good friend man :( we're hope to each other, along with F. Sooo basically D HATES A so much like man calm down, and in some time, me and C decided to create another group chat with everyone. We told them not to fight or anything, it was like that for days. By the way we went to school and stuff. The school year starts in February in my country, so it's vacation right now yay.
Then A and D started to fight like, yelling to each other in whatsapp voice messages until we told them to cut it out and removed them both out of the group lol.
So it was this way for like, months but then vacation started and F and A were going out of my school. D's birthday was coming up and she invited everyone except A (who didn't care)
But E couldn't make it and D got super mad at her and stuff so yeah -1 friend.
Me and F went to a lot of places during the vacation, to each other's houses, shopping malls and stuff, and C was traveling outside of the country and all that but we talked a lot. I haven't talked to E, D and A the whole time.
I feel controlled by all of my friends. I guess I have a good tongue but my weaknesses are out there for those who want to bully me and all my classmates probaly hate me and I can't get peace even in my vacation. I guess I'm just overthinking it all.
I need more friends I guess. I just have two exceptionally close to me but I can't be honest to anyone in my life so I'll just post as an anonymous student in middle school who is weird as hell.
Also, I figured I'm sleeping less than necessary to maintain a healthy life, to 7-4 hours per day, and I'm burnt out from just existing and I want to disappear so badly man 💀👽
Bye guys I'll post in a few hours to maybe describe how and where I am and etc.
Have a good day/night
Word count is 595 so just let your responsibilities go and eat a cookie and drink water I'll so the same if u do bye
