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i. last kiss ─ v.r

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genre ; angst.
word count ; 1320

i still remember the look on your face lit through the darkness at 1:58 the words that you whispered for just us to know you told me you loved me so why did you go

━ november 17, 2021
ㅤthat night is still stuck on my brain, the words you said can never leave my head at 1:58 am you looked at me like i was nothing,  " i don't think our relationship is working anymore " rae whispered softly

a million thoughs were going through my head " weren't we planning our future last night, how could you change your mind so quickly.." my tears falling down my face, not wanting her to see me break down i quickly went out, as i was outside in the darkness i sat down at the pavement, all i could hear was my sobs i wonder why did you let me go?

━ august 3, 2021

  i do recall now the smell of the rain fresh on the pavement, I ran off the plane that July ninth, the beat of your heart it jumps through your shirt i can still feel your arms.

ㅤi remember waiting so many months so i can finally return back to you. i can't explain how much i missed you, as i got off the pane you were the first person that i looked for. the airport was so noisy, but when you called for me your voice was the only thing i heard, as soon as i spotted you, i ran towards you with arms wide open, as soon as i felt your arms around me all i felt was that everybody had disappeared the noise that i could ony hear was your heart that was beating so loud out of your chest. i want to remember how it feels to hold by you again.

━ january 19, 2022

   but now i'll go sit on the floor wearing your clothes all that I know is i don't know how to be something you miss i never thought we'd have a last kiss never imagined we'd end like this your name, forever the name on my lips

ㅤit had been two months since we have last spoke, and it still feels like my heart has been torn apart. not crushed nor shattered it was torn apart. pain doesn't justify this feeling, i've been through hell and back, but i managed to get back on my feet. i tried doing my best to keep myself busy, i've tried streaming, but i couldn't avoid all the chats asking where are you, how they missed you, i wanna tell you the same thing but i have to keep going. i'm lost was all you said to me empty promises? you left without a proper goodbye and i wanna hate you for that.

━ㅤjanuary 8, 2021

ㅤi do remember the swing of your step the life of the party, you're showing off again and i'd roll my eyes and then you'd pull me in i'm not much for dancing, but for you, i did because i love your handshake, meeting my father i love how you walk with your hands in your pockets how you'd kiss me when I was in the middle of saying something there's not a day i don't miss those rude interruptions

ㅤi could hear all of the guest talking with eachother, but all i was doing was admiring you while you speak to your friends your smile so bright, you took a quick glance and our eyes meet, i couldn't help but roll my eyes as i saw you sneak a wink through my direction, i saw you walking towards me

" do you like dancing..? " rae whispered softly as she stood infront of me " not really, i'm not the very best at it" i say with a slight chuckle " ohh.. alright.." rae says with a disappointing tone "you should ask me anyway" i say while maintaining eye contact " i- oh um, ofcourse would you care for a dance then?" rae said slightly stuttering.

i grin while i held out one of my hand so she could take it, she grab ahold of my hand and i slowly bit the inside of my cheeks so i could stop my smile from spreading so wide. " y/n! you stepped on my foot again! " rae said while laughing " sorry! i told you, rachel. i'm not that good at thi-" i stop speaking as i felt rae's lips connect with mine as soon as the kiss started it quickly ended " i told you to stop apologizing! and you're getting better already" rae says while smiling brightly. that night we danced under the moonlight and your face lighting up brighter than the whole stars.

━ㅤfebruary 26, 2022

so i'll watch your life in pictures like i used to watch you sleep and I feel you forget me like i used to feel you breathe and I'll keep up with our old friends just to ask them how you are hope it's nice where you are and i hope the sun shines and it's a beautiful day and something reminds you you wish you had stayed you can plan for a change in the weather and time but i never planned on you changing your mind

   @valkyrae has posted something.

as i saw your notification pop up on my phone i let out a sigh out of my lips and hesitantly grabbed my phone to see what you have posted, i let out a small smile as i looked at your photo, you were smiling while your eyes shut it seems as if you had just woken up. i start to recall the way you used to sleep beside me while you hug me tightly, the sound of my phone shutting off quickly brought me out of my daydream. i wanted to like your photo, i wanted to be the first person you send your morning selfies to again. we haven't spoken in 3 months yet i still know how you're doing. i would ask your roommates on how you're doing and if you're taking good care of your health not caring if i look like a desperate person to them. letting out an annoyed sigh, i hurriedly went back to my game that i paused because of her, silently hoping that my viewers don't question on who i was looking at on my phone.

━ㅤnovember ?, 2021

just like our last kiss forever the name on my lips forever the name on my lips just like our last.

  Rae's Pov
as i sit there watching them walk away, i couldn't help but replay our last kiss over and over in my mind. it was bittersweet - a reminder of how much i loved them, but also of how much i was going to miss them.

their name lingered on my lips long after they were gone. i found myself whispering it to myself, trying to hold onto the feeling of them just a little bit longer.

days turned into weeks, and weeks turned into months, but i still couldn't shake the memory of them. their name became a constant companion, a reminder of the love we once shared.

but as time went on, i began to realize deep down I knew that no one could ever replace them. they had left a mark on my heart that would never fade.

and so i found myself alone, with nothing but the echo of their name to keep me company. i knew that i would never forget them, no matter how hard i tried.

in the end, all I could do was hold onto the memory of our last kiss, and the love we once shared. it was a bittersweet reminder of a time when things were simple and beautiful, and of a love that was always meant to be.

end.

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