Sapphire FEELS

Watashi no jinsei no tenshi

The song for this Feeling: Oh my darling by Racheal Chinouriri

"Don't say that to me!!" … Mara screamed as she took steps back in a stagger. 

" I love you!!..... please" , I tried to tell her 

But as she did she looked at me with nothing but regret in her eyes..or that was what she wanted me to think 

She started to hyperventilate and i ran to her side 

But she pushed me away 

"Vida, please just calm down" .. I begged and I was still pleading in my heart.

"But why!?"... she pushed herself to say she tried to control her breath..

"I didn't mean to and i am sorry but i can't change it" 

Her breathing only got worse..

"Don't say that to me,

I don't love you… I can't love you .

Just get that into your heart she spat.

" Amore, look at me" .. i said trying to cup her face in my hands after i did, she still didn't look at me 

"I know you don't want to love me, and i hate that fact 

But you are the only one for me", i said to my girlfriend, she sat on the floor … the moonlight shining on her face making her hazel eyes reflect the stars causing a sensual black hole.

Her pale skin reflecting a shiny blue and her peach lips looking as heavenly as the pearl gates ..

Looking into her eyes ..

I could feel my heartbeat accelerating.

She couldn't stop crying ..she kept sobbing and hold onto her shirt as she shoke in my arms

…

"Why do you keep doing this to me!

I- I told you to leave !!

Just leave!! 

What do you want me to say 

I can't love you!!".She said to me with her head down..

I felt a tear run down my face 

As I noticed her arms… i was the reason 

"Vida, listen to me" i tried to say as tears rolled down my face 

"No you listen.. 

I am not good for you and your mom even confirms .. i just wreck your life, Vida" … she finally looked at me …

And with that she freed herself from my hold and took her shirt off..

I was taken aback by the number of lines I saw drawn across her skin.

"Mar- mar - " i was trying to say her name but the idea of catching my breath was what my brain chose ..

" You can't stay with me " … 

I didn't notice she was moving until she said,

"Itsu demo, itsu made mo, watashi no jinsei no tenshi"

And with that i didn't notice when she pushed herself out the window..

My eyes widened as I started hyperventilating..

I sat on the floor shaking and crying . I loved her with my life 

She was mi Vida 

My life and the words she said to me

"always and forever ,angel of my life!!"..

How could she just leave me like that….. 

The night has never been this cold … I couldn't move .. I couldn't talk .. and soon after i couldn't breathe and before i knew i was gone as well … 

But I couldn't see the light, just trapped in this longing.

Now all I have is an Echo where my heart used to be.

                                   Written by Your Princess feels💜

    07~01~023♤