A Secret Within Myself

Chapter 3

I wake up and it's only a few hours later, I didn't realize I was tired. I check my phone and there are no new texts, but I never answered his previous one. I open our texts and I decide to answer, "I'm not not interested." He doesn't reply and I shouldn't expect him to. I get up and head down to the kitchen. I look around and I realize nothing sounds good. The only thing I've had today is coffee. I really don't want to cook so I decide to go out again. I go out to eat too much, maybe that should be a part of my new years resolution, new years is tomorrow night. Now my only issue is to decide where I want to go.

I decide on Mcdonalds because it's cheap. I drive to the closes mcdonalds and go inside to use the kiosk. While i'm ordering my favorite meal, a spicy chicken delux combo with a mocha frappe, I feel someone watching me. Out from now where I hear a male voice say, "Coffee again? Do you think maybe you should drink something else as well?" I whip around and there stands Alistar, as tall and hot as ever.

"I don't think it's any of your business what I take into my body," I say in a matter of fact tone. He smirks and I realize what I said, my cheeks immediately start burning. "I like to concern myself about what goes into your body," he says still smirking. I scoff and turn back to my order. I hear him chuckle and then he wraps his arms around me and pushes against my back. He's warm and I stutter out, "W-hat are you d-doing?" He lowers his head gently kisses my neck and says, "Oh come on, you know you want to be with me." I start breathing heavily and manage to speak, "We can talk about this somewhere a little less public." I pause. " I need to eat something." I hear him sigh and then he whispers in my ear, " Be a good girl and get something healthier to drink." I nod in agreement, the way he's commanding me is turning me on more than I ever have been. I change my dring to a brisk tea and finish my order. We wait in silence for my order to arrive. Once I have my food in hand Allistar starts.

" Come with me, we should talk about us." I look up into his bright blue eyes and say, "Yeah, maybe we should, but I want to do it on a neutral grounds." He thinks for a second and then replies, "I agree, how about the middle of campus. It's basically a park and it's right across the street." I nod and we start walking. It's only about a ten minute walk and it's extremely awkward. Once we get to a decent area near the letters at the middle of campus he ahs me sit on a bench. I don't know how this conversation is goingto start or even what to say. I've never had much of a relationship and the few I did have always ended because I didn't want to have sex anymore. Allistar sits down next to me and just stares at the ground for a moment as the tension grows. All of a sudden he starts the conversation.

" I don't know what it is about you. From the moment I saw you when you barged in on me I wanted to be with you," he says. This is crazy I think of how to reply without sounding like a prude I just say, "The feeling is mutual. Hell i've even dreamt about you, but We literally met less than twenty-four hours ago." He looks as conflicted as I feel, he says, "That shouldn't matter, I have a pull to you, please at least give me a chance. I think on this, there are so many things to weigh. I also feel a connection to him that I can't explain, he is the first person I've ever had a sex dream about which has to mean something. Then again, I just met him, and what if this is all just a fantasy. I could just get hurt again, There's too much to weigh and so we sit in silence both lost completely in thought.