A friend once told me that she read somewhere that we all want to live like we are 10 years older than our actual age. If we are in our 20's, we want to live like we are in our 30's. We want to go on solo trips, maybe get married early, own a house, a car maybe a dog and have money. Loads of money.
I am 18.
18 mere years and I feel the stress of the world upon me. I don't have anyone to share my sorrows with, nobody I want to share them with. Something in me does not allow me to open up about myself, tell stuff about myself. What my plans for the future are. Why I don't have a boyfriend, am I okay with being single or even what I do at home after I return from college.
To be honest it feels embarrassing to tell them that I do nothing. Nothing productive at least . Productive for what the world makes of the word. In the last 12 hours I have watched an entire series on Netflix, tried on some clothes, pondered about my future, freaked myself out and decided to leave everything to some higher power and went back to binging. Netflix and food.
I relate most with Sheldon Cooper. I like to be antisocial, I like to have things set in order, I don't like when people touch my things, I don't like when people think they know everything about me, I like to think I'm mysterious.
I like to think I am batman.
