Beauty in the Struggle

5.

Zoemi

"I don't think I can do this I don't think I'm ready"

I was currently standing outside the audition building with Meme and Momma Steph losing my mind. Every emotion that you could feel I'm feeling in this moment. Everything that I've been dreaming of lies behind those doors and I'm terrified.

"Zoe I've heard you talk about how this is all you ever wanted since you were 17 and now it's here you'll be fine you'll do great baby"

" But what if I mess up and they don't want me anymore or..."

"Zoemi stop thinking about the what ifs your in the present now you'll do great and just think of this as one step closer to Kairo " meme explained

Just hearing my sons name breaks my heart but she's right doubting myself won't help me get him back and feeling sorry won't make me any money .

"Thank you guys so much"

"Your welcome baby now go do ya thing girl"

Walking inside the building I was met by Justine

"Zoemi just the girl we been waiting for we have car out back that's gonna take you to the location of the video shoot, Tia here will direct you that way and I'll be right behind you"

We began walking down this long hallway making a few turns along the way until we got the door that Tia opened.

Behind the door stood a driver waiting with the door opened for me. I got in and soon after Justine did as well. We made small talk for the short ride. She gave me all types of advice and tips on things I should do.

"Tia will take you to your dressing room to get you ready and then we will begin shooting see you in a bit hun"

This whole process is making me feel so important. I have one lady doing my hair one doing my make up another consulting me about what outfit I like best I could get use to this. Caught up in all the glam I was still unsure as to who's video I'm gonna be in so I decided to ask around

"Hey do you know who's video shoot this is for I wasn't told who it was for" I asked the girl styling my hair

" Oh girl I'm not sure either I just show up where I'm told I find out when you start shooting" she explained

I really hope I'm not gonna be in no video that ain't gonna get no exposure I don't wanna be done as soon as I start.

After hair and makeup I got dressed in my first outfit and make my way out the dressing room. Surprised at what I had seen I was greeted by Junstine and Toosii

"Nau'Jour"

"Zoe wassup ma" he said with a smirk

"You two know eachother " Justine asked

"Long story but yeahh" he replied still smirking at me

"Well that's even better that means the chemistry in the video will look even better....well let's go first set is waiting for you guys" Justine spoke walking towards the director

"How ironic is this " I asked him with a smile

" I already knew it was gonna be you I just wanted to see your face when you seen me "

This boy think he slick as hell but I can't lie I was happy it was him. It calmed my nerves a lot.

We filmed all day retaking and adjusting some scenes. I can't lie I had a lot of fun but I was tired as hell. It was 9:30pm and we were wrapping up for the day until tomorrow.