Whatever It Takes - JacksGap

Chapter Nine

xx Chapter Nine ~ Frustration xx

"It's not what you think." Jack defended as Finn's fierce, piercing green eyes tore him apart.

"That's what they always say." Finn stated, his voice cold and emotionless. His gaze met mine and the corners of his eyes softened into something that looked like deep sadness, seeing it seized my heart into pieces.

"I was drunk, I didn't know what I was doing. The kiss didn't mean anything." Jack continued, his glance steady and determined.

Didn't mean anything.

I didn't know why but it stung a little. It wasn' supposed to sting, I was already more than satisfied to be with Finn. Stop being so selfish, Alex. Get a hold of yourself.

"Is this true?" Finn's lime-green eyes bored into mine, making me speechless, all I could do was nod. I caught a glance of his hurt bleeding through before he looked down.

"Jack's right, Finn. The kiss didn't mean any-" I started to say.

"Why didn't you tell me?" Finn questioned, cutting me off, still looking down at the floor.

"Finn, I was drunk. Get over it." Jack argued, his voice staggering. Finn ignored him and looked up at me, his eyes were full of love that made me want to run into his arms and stay there forever.

Suddenly, something caught me off guard. He doesn't trust me?

Now that I thought about it, he did have a look betrayal stained in his eyes. It was like someone lit up a bomb in me.

"Finnegan Frayn Harries! The one that I love is you! Stop this nonsense and look me in the eye." I shouted desperately at him. His eyes became the purest green, like the grass that sloped down toward rivers, as they stared into mine before turning away. He started to walk out of my room, but I quickly grabbed his wrist, stopping him.

"You don't believe me?" I choked out as my eyes widened in shock. Finn shook his head.

"Give me some time." Finn muttered before departing, leaving Jack and I staring at the door speechlessly. I caught myself tearing up and tried to blink away the tears.

"Damn it!" Jack swore under his breath. He turned to me and sighed. Realizing that I needed some time to take all of this in, he left my room without another word, closing the door behind him.

As soon as he left, I quickly wiped away the tears that were starting tumble down as I collapsed onto my bed.

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I woke the next morning with a head ache. I called my mom and told her about the move, she understood and made me promise her that I next time I make decisions like this, I would call her first. Then, I did all my morning routine solemnly until I looked into the mirror before choosing my outfit.

My eyes  that were shinning like diamonds yesterday night, were dull gray. My skin looked paler than usual and there were bags under my eyes due to my lack of sleep. All in all, I looked tired,  as if someone has sucked my soul out of me.

 Alex, you can fix this.

To change my mood into somewhat more decent, I decided to go for a light turquoise-coloured sun dress with the same coloured bracelet and put my hair into a long braid. I plastered a smile on my face before heading downstairs.

I found Jack in the kitchen, making himself a sandwich. I glanced at the clock, it read 10:19 AM.

"Morning, Alex." Jack smiled weakly at me.