"I want to be a disciple of the Lan clan"
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Those words stung on Lan Xichen's heart like a thousand bees. He expected any request, coming from the idea to be able to still bear the name of a Jin or whatever it might have been, or to be set free as soon as possible, or to be left alive after everything, but never the idea of his friend willing to be part of the strict clan of Cloud Recces.
"A-Yao, are you sure you want that? You areas well welcomed to be our disciple but I'm not really sure that people there will let you pass unrecognized and you will probably will get bullied by the juniors" Lan Xichen spoke softly. He knew that if Shi Yao was going to be a disciple of the clan, it would fall a little blame for what he did on the clan, for welcoming him with arms open, but for the leader of the clan it didn't really matter, as he was either way going to try put a little of blame on himself and protect his friend at almost all cost, trying to also keep his dignity and pride.
"I am aware of that, Er ge, and I still want to join your clan, because I consider that either way your clan is the safest and if you and the other clans take the choice of keeping me alive, I would have to be kept in your clan's locked chambers.. And Er ge, I am a horrible human who fid a thousand deeds, but I would never like for myself to be locked in comfort, you as well should lock me to feel like a prisoner in cells of the Yunmeng Jiang, cause if you lock me in Lanling, I feel home, if you lock me in Qinghe, I could finda way to escape easily and if you lock me in Cloud Recces, I would feel like a animal, being locked in your simple comfort.. Though, I don't want to be locked anywhere. Not anymore. " he spoke. His voice was somewhat strict and cold, like he was somehow demanding for them to do that, but also it was some warmness in his voice, like, even though demanding, he wasn't too forceful about it. And Zewu Jun understood that, and layed on his black, eyes closed, he just nodded and spoke simply a "Then as you wish, you are a disciple of the Lan clan" and soon he felt asleep, though he promised him he wouldn't. And the reason why he felt asleep was simple:No, not that he was tired, he knew that his friend wouldn't run away, he had nowhere to go, and any way, no matter where he ran, no matter how far, he had to return to the only person he had left, and that was his friend Lan Xichen. He had no family anymore, he lost his 'brother' Wei Wuxian, his mother, his father, his brother, his cousin, his nephew who probably hated him too, his sworn brothers.. And though, one of his ex sworn brothers still remained by his side, with his rosy cheeks and his bright eyes and soft gaze..
And that was one of the reasons why Jin Guangyao, Meng Yao, Lianfang Zun, Shi Yao and every name he bore loved him so much..
The taller was sleeping soudly, tossing from time to time, while his friend, until the time he layed himself to sleep too, killed by sleep,watched him, with a smile. It wasn't a smile of happiness really, it was the type of smile one has when they realize how much they care about a certain thing person, animal or whatever one meant it too. Yao watched him in one's realization of how much he loved him, and it wasn't really the love related to lust, it was more a love related to the sense of mutual care and appreciation..
All his life, he looked for a person that wouldn't let go of him even when he was dying, and finally, he thought he found him. He was the one he was looking for all his life.
"Er ge, if only one day I could tell you how much I actually appreciate that you are still my friend, and after all, tell you that I'm grateful you are by my side.. In another life, when I'm going to be a emperor or ruler again, I will name you my dianxia" Yao mumbled softly and he was smiling while saying that, his cheeks flushed slightly with enjoyment. He cared deeply about that man
Shi Yao layed beside his friend, closing his eyes and resting his head on the pillow, eyes closed, enjoying the silence he let for around some minutes, then, just some minutes before he fell into his own sleeping spoiler, he spoke the last time for that day:
"Good night, qin qin"
