My best friend- a Draco malfoy imagine

21. Unholy, so very unholy

My Bestfriend

Chapter 21

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I sat on my bed and saw my dress on it... along with my underwear and bra... bits and pieces coming back slowly making me feel sick... if he finds out hed leave... he probably only thinks of me as his little sister... yeah we've shared small kisses... we've spent the night together and yeah we tell each other everything, no matter what... but he can't... he doesn't like me... he has called me 3 times but I can't speak to him... I can't let him know that I'm sitting there letting the memories come back, that I'm not repulsed by the fact he touched my body... that was when my door opened... and There stands the boy with who I shared the best night ever with last night... there stands my best friend... the man who I know is gonna ruin me...

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Its been almost three days and i dont know how i will ever face him again... hes come to the dorm, tried to talk to me but i cant even look his way without remembering the way his hands slid across my body so softly... the way his lips tasted and glided against my skin, his soft moans... god snap out of it y/n. It was just a drunken mess, it didnt mean anything.                           I got out of bed, dreading the day before me as i walked to my bathroom- our bathroom... i took in a deep breath as i opened the door, feeling the cool air burst into my room as i walked in, I turned the shower on the hottest temperature it would go and slipped from my- his- t-shirt, so what if he remembers and hates you right? What would it matter anyway its not like he was the love of your life or anything...

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Dracos pov-

"I don't understand though mate, she cant even look me in the eyes..." i looked at blaise with tears threatening to fall from my eyes as he put his hand on my shoulder "she loves you draco, i know she does, shes just... y/n... y/n stoner... shes fucking stubborn and probably scared shitless right now but doesnt want to admit that to anyone." I nodded laying back on my bed. "She is really bloody stubborn isnt she" he laughed laying back as well, after a few minutes of silence we both jumped to the sound of the shower turning on "see told you, shes fine" blaise whispered beside me as i nodded. "She better talk to me today or i swea-" "wheres my soaps- draco you bastard. You Fucking bloody bastard he gave then to some slag i bet. damn it." I laughed and looked at blaise who was smiling "she spoke" i rolled my eyes standing up "she doesnt know im in here you tit".                                                                                                                            Crazy to say it but Blaise and i have gotten closer since she hasnt spoken to me in a couple days... i mean yeah, it hurts but i dont need her. Shes only my best friend... not the girl i wanted to have my children or hold my hand when i needed it to be held... oh who am i kidding. I love her. always have and always will love her...

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Y/ns pov- 

Why must he allow those brats use our bathroom. Bastard is lucky i always have extra soaps cus i swear if my shi- oh... there it is. I laughed at my blindness and finished washing off before stepping out of the shower, the hickeys still visible just yellow in color now. I was just looking in the mirror, allowing my fingers to trace the marks when i heard a soft whisper. "Merlin..." i snapped my head towards the blonde standing in the bathroom doorframe in shock. "Did i- oh lord..." i pulled the towel closer to my body and looked at the ground. "It was a mistake i- y/n forgive me" i felt tears start to pool in my eyes as i looked up. "A mistake?..." my voice cracked as his face softened. "I didnt mean- y/n" i shook my head. "So you do remember..." he looked down. Great. Bloody brilliant. I laughed a bit stepping back, uncomfortable in my skin. "Draco this cant- we cant let anyone know... theyd kill us- hed kill us..." his eyes shot up at me as he looked around the small room in fear. "Oh merlin... we forgot-" he looked at me and I could feel the fear coming from him. "Draco ive been working on it i promise... let me get dressed and we can go get food hm?" He nodded and combed his hand through his hair and walking back into his dorm, allowing me to let go of my breath... he looked horrible but... he looked so good at the same time... the words he said still ringing through my mind... but his scent taking control and changing my dark thoughts to unholy ones... very very unholy... 

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Im so so so sorry for being inactive, some things came up and i wasnt doing too well mentally for a bit, i got a new job and got in contact with some people again and things have just been hectic, but ill try to post more again! I was so lost writing this but im sure my mind will come up with something to make this work in the future, lyg! If you enjoy pls vote and give some ideas! <333