THE FAULT IN OUR STARS / MINCHAN (✓)

eighteen

THIRD PERSON POV

"ARE YOU CRAZY!?" Hyunjin screamed at Chan making everyone in the room flinch. The scream echoed through the hospital walls as Felix's who just arrived at the hospital eyes filled with tears. Everyone were being all happy when Chan said he found the match for the cancer that is spreading to Minho's lungs but what he said next dropped their mood instantly.

"Chan hyung, please don't be silly. You've your own life to live. It's not like we don't care for Minho hyung.. but you should not take such a decision without discussing this with uncle" Felix stated referring to Chan's father.

"Dad will understand I'll send him letters"

"Hyung... Don't you care about him? Don't you care about yourself and us? Why are k-killing yourself" Jisung's voice broke at the end of the sentence. He was not ready to lose his hyung at any cost.

"I'm giving my lungs to him" Chan was even more determined now. Hyunjin didn't speak any further and stromed out the hospital building without uttering a single word. "I'll go and look after him" Jisung stated leaving Felix with Chan all alone as TXT members had to leave because of their photoshoot event.

"Hyung, you may not be my blood brother but you're more to me. I can't afford losing a person like you─"

"Everyone has to die someday, Lix and that applies on me as well. Even if I don't give my lungs to Minho I'll still die as my amnesia is killing me every day and one day there will be day when I'll forget everyone and everything. I will even forget to wear my own clothes or how eat food" Chan let out a pained chuckle. Felix's heart was too fragile to understand Chan's words. He always had been a great friend, cousin and caregiver to him now that Chan has only few days left scared him. We'll never know how valuable a person is until we lose them.

"If Minho dies my mind won't be able to take it and I don't think so that I will be able to survive without him" Chan paused and grabbed both sides of Felix's shoulders and again started talking. Felix seemed to understand Chan's condition and he decided not to interrupt him and let the older speak. "But if I give my lungs to Min, he will live and I will be so happy if he breathes through my l-lungs"

"How will you explain it to him?"

"I will see later" Chan said and Felix pulled him into a tight hug. This is how the younger always shows his affection to his friends. "Lix, I want you to drive me to my house.. I don't remember the road to my house"

"Sure, Hyung" As soon as Felix said the words Chan tossed his car keys to the younger and they drove to his house. Felix's stopped the car and looked at Chan with tears in his eyes. "Please think once more before taking the decision" The younger male said to the latter.

"I've taken my decision already, Lix"   Chan smiled at the boy weakly. Felix wiped off his own tears with the back of his hand and drove their car to the said location. As soon as Chan reached the house he took out a beautiful shining diamond ring from the locker and a beautiful star necklace alongwith it. Felix watched the older admire the accessories with so much loves and he couldn't help but ask him about it.

"What's that, hyung?" Felix pointed at the little velvet box Chan held in his palm. "A small gift for Min" Chan told the younger while opening the box and showing the beautiful shining pair of the diamond necklace and diamond ring. In the pendant of that necklace the initials of Chan's and Minho's name were engraved which made it look even beautiful.

"This is so pretty" Felix looked at the gift in awe. "I wanted to give this to Minho on his birthday but seems like I won't be able to do so.. I think I'll give this to him today'' Chan smiled at the tiny present and made his way towards the exit and Felix tailing him behind.

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(The surgery day)

Chan met with Dr. Kim and he asked if he can go and watch Minho for the last time before surgery or not. The doctor seemed to agree with his request and let him visit his boyfriend before the surgery.

Chan entered Minho's cabin with a heavy heart. His eyes laid on the unconscious boy, his eyes were shut closed and machine wires connected to his body. He can see Minho's heart rate in the monitor small beside the bed. His face looked calm as a sea and beautiful like an angel. He was dressed in white shirt and pants like every other patient and his brown hairs falling on his forehead covering the half of his pretty face. He looked gorgeous even when he was asleep. And his mouth covered with the oxygen mask like before.

Chan went closer to him and moved his bangs from his face. He wondered how Minho was going through so much without even letting anyone know. He never weeped about him being in pain. Chan touched the younger's face then placed a small peck on his forehead. "Don't be mad at me when you wake up" Chan whispered to the unconscious boy.

He held the younger's small hands into his fists and kissed the back of it. "I never noticed how perfectly your small hands fits in mine" Chan let out a giggle then he slid down the small diamond ring over Minho's ring finger and again pecked his hand.

He pulled out the chain from his pocket and tugged it in the younger's neck "I will miss you. I will miss the softness of your lips, I will miss your beautiful laughter and smile, your voice and your small hands in mine. I will even miss the moments when you were being all savage towards me" A laugh was heard from Chan. His heart was beating in an uncertain pace. "I can't even kiss you for the last time. Damn that oxygen mask" He laughed a bit. He talked to Minho's asleep body for a while and it was finally the time for him to go.

"I love you, Min and I'll always do" Chan
got up from the chair he was sitting but he felt Minho's grip on his wrist. It felt like as if he was trying to stop Chan from giving his lungs to him, as if he didn't want this to happen. Chan slowly pulled his wrist out of the younger's hold and looked at his beautiful boy for one last time. He bolted out of the hospital room. Getting lost around the white walls but stopped when he bumped into a certain person. Mrs. Lee , Minho's mother.

"Chan-ah", She called the blond boy who stared at her confusedly. He couldn't recognise her but he can tell that he knows this lady because she looked someone very well known to him. Her features are completely similar to his boyfriend, Minho. Then he realised it was none other than Minho's mother.

"Aunty"

"See don't get me wrong but you should think for one last time before you go to the operation theatre. Once you're there you can't back off. I love my son but you have your own life as well" The middle aged lady explained and looked at the boy for an answer. "I'm donating my lungs to Minho and it's my final decision, Aunty"

"I'd still like you to think about it before the surgery starts" She stated and patted Chan's shoulder. Chan looked at her swollen eyes and he urgently felt the urge to embrace her. She might not be his mother but she always has been taking care of him like one.

Hyunjin came and wrapped his arms around Chan and pulled him into a hug. "I- I'm sorry.. h-hyung.. I truly am. I should not have shouted on you" Hyunjin hugged Chan tighter. "I was was scared of losing you"

"Hyunjinnie, I am not leaving you. Whenever you miss me just feel me find me in your heart I'll be there for you" Chan laughed half heartedly. Hyunjin could not help but feel guilty for being too rude towards the older before.

"Never forget me, okay?" The blond said out of context. "I'll never forget you hyung!"