The Alphas Prize

Chapter 9: Weird vibes - Part 3/3

His one hand rested on my hip while the other gripped the back of my neck, and he deepened the kiss. I moaned into his mouth, causing him to growl in satisfaction from my reaction. Cain began kissing my neck, slowly moving down; his soft lips hovered over the spot where he would mark me, he rubbed his nose along the area, ever so gently, and my wolf purred with excitement. Finally, Cain dragged the top of his canines along the spot, and that was when I realized what was going on; he was going to try and mark me! Like fuck I was going to let that happen! Cain was probably hoping that it would make me more compliant if he marked me.

"Cain, stop it," I shouted as I attempted to shove him away, but he just wrapped me in his arms and held me tightly to him and started licking the spot.

"Cain, I said fucking stop!" I roared at him as I tried with all my might to free myself.

He stilled and began groaning, "When are you going to come to terms with the fact that we are mates?" Cain asked quietly, still holding me tightly to his body.

"Never! Because we are not mates, Cain." I admit I had feelings towards him, feelings and desires that I couldn't explain. But mentally, I didn't want to accept that he was my mate.

"Just because you don't feel it yet, doesn't mean we aren't mates. Remember my love; the males feel the bond first. The fact that you keep rejecting me like this and pushing me away is destroying the bond and is hurting me." His words hit me hard. I wasn't expecting him to be so open and emotional with me. But, I could hear it in his tone that he was being honest, and it threw me for a loop.

I didn't know how to respond. I paused for a beat, drinking in Cain's words, but I didn't want him to know he had gotten to me. "Good, I hope I destroy the bond, and I truly hope I am hurting you because you deserve to feel a tremendous amount of pain." I sneered. I was being somewhat honest, I wanted him to feel the pain I felt from his actions, but I also wasn't sure if I genuinely wanted to destroy the bond.

Cain pulled himself away from me, didn't look at me or react in the way that I had expected. Instead, he returned to his desk. "Get out." He said in a cold manner.

I hopped down from the desk and made my way towards the door, but stopped before reaching for the handle, as I was suddenly hit with a wave of strong emotions, sadness, hurt, betrayal and loss. I didn't understand why I was feeling these emotions. I looked over my shoulder towards Cain and saw him sitting there, with his head in his hands, and for a brief moment, I wanted to turn around and run to him and make him feel better, not really sure why, but I did. Finally, however, I stopped myself and just left the room.

Calyx was waiting for me just outside the room. "How did it go?" He asked curiously.

"Terrific!" I replied sarcastically.

"That good huh, figured as much." He shrugged.

"Can you take me to my room, please?" I wanted to be alone right now. All this arguing was draining, I had so many unanswered questions, and the emotions I was feeling now did not help.

Calyx gave me a sympathetic look. "Of course." He nodded.

We began walking down the hall; so much was going through my mind at the moment. I didn't understand why I felt the need to comfort him, take away his pain and make things right between us. Even if I am his mate, I don't want to be mated to a monster like him. Cain has done so much harm to numerous packs, including mine. I wasn't sure if I could forgive and forget if I could move past everything and build a future with him.

We reached the bedroom, and I turned to Calyx. "Thank you, Calyx; you can go now. I am just going to have a shower and go to bed."

He pursed his lips. "Ok, well, if you need anything, don't hesitate to let me know. Have a good night Freja." Calyx said with a smile.

I slowly nodded my head while staring at the floor. "Will do, and thanks, you too."

I closed the door as Calyx departed. I felt overwhelmed by today's events; my brain was racing with many thoughts and questions. I didn't know how to feel about any of this, be honest, or deal with the situation. I leaned against the door, closed my eyes and sucked in a deep breath, attempting to calm myself.

The feelings and reactions I was experiencing with Cain were all linked to a mate bond. I remember my mother telling me how she felt when she met my father, the spark's that coursed through her body when they touched, all the things I was experiencing with Cain. I wasn't sure how to accept all of this, my new life and my future. Finally, I took in another deep breath and pushed aside all my racing thoughts, and decided to get into the shower.

I went to the closet, chose some comfortable pyjamas, and then made my way into the bathroom. This whole situation is the definition of bullshit, except the bathroom; this was the one thing that made all of this worth it. I turned on the shower and climbed in, allowing the water to flow down my body and wash everything away. After a while, I began to feel relaxed and much calmer, to the point where I could have fallen asleep standing up. I guess that's my cue to get out.

I started washing my hair when the tiny hairs on the back of my neck began to rise, as well as my wolf hackles, and she snarled. Suddenly, I developed this feeling in my gut that I was being watched. I turned towards the shower doors and looked around but saw no one in the room. Again, however, I couldn't shake the feeling that someone had their eyes on me. I quickly finished with my hair and body, then covered myself in a towel and got out of the shower. I again looked around the room, but still, no one else was around. That was weird! Maybe the sleep deprivation is beginning to get to me.