The Airyn Atkin Story

who am i?

"Did you get it?"

"Yes, of course. I'm backing it right now."

"Shit!"

"Airyn? What's wrong!?"

"I think they found me..."

"Who are you!"

"Airyn, get out there. Permission to engage granted."

I shot up immediately, covered in sweat, searching for air, and searching for the off button on the alarm. Director Carter said writing things done would help with the stress. So here I am, lying in bed, writing to a fucking diary. The dreams are always bad but watching movies similar to what I do and what I've done is the worst. I should introduce myself. My name is Airyn Atkin, and I'm one of the smartest people in the world. I'm also one of the deadliest people you will ever meet. I'm not trying to give away the idea that I'm more than what I am because everything I'm writing down is certifiably true, however, only a small number of people can verify this. So let me explain my situation to you.

I'm a training assassin, I'm working on two master degrees (biological engineering and computer programming), I speak six languages (fluently), I work for the department of homeland security, and I'm only 16 years old. You see when I was very young my parents realized that I was abnormally bright. I'm talking bright. By the time I was six months I had absolute control over all of my motor skills: walking, running, drawing, writing, etc. When I was one I could speak like a kindergarten student, so I started school. By the time my peers started the third grade I had finished elementary school, I then started middle school. I had finished grades kindergarten through eighth by the time my peers finished elementary. I was done with high school by the time my peers finished their freshman year. I was home schooled, if that wasn't obvious. However, all of this didn't go without sending some red flags to the government. So the government contacted my parents and I was assigned to Director Carter. We started working together when I was 13, that's when all of this started. That was when I started training and receiving extra education. It was Director Carter's idea to place me in high school with fake classes. So I started high school like everyone else, except I had a fake schedule (it was filled with electives) and I took real classes at Georgetown University. I was already training in martial arts but when Director Carter came to one of my tournaments and saw my skill set she decided that I need to receive training. At 14 I learned what Director Carter did for a living. She's the director of covert operations for the department of homeland security, and the government assigned her to me because they felt I could be valuable. Naturally, I though this was pretty fucking cool, I mean I was basically becoming a real life Black Widow. Who wouldn't want to be their favorite hero? I was being trained for full combat and I spent my summers being shipped of to training camps in places like Russia, Malaysia, and Baghdad. So that's what and who I'm becoming. An American spy and assassin.

Don't get me wrong, I'm a normal teenage girl. I go to high school, it's just under different circumstances. I'm there for fun, the social aspect of it. I have friends, I go to parties, I have a boyfriend. My life is just harder compared to others. I'm lying constantly, not just to staff but to my friends, my boyfriend, my family, myself. No one can know what I do and who I am, which makes things hard. And since I go on missions or train over breaks it's hard to answer those types of questions. What'd you do this weekend? Oh you know, the usual, I took a flight out to Moscow and hacked into Putin's computer to get an idea for his political agenda, got shot at, then flew home. You can't say stuff like that, not only because it's not aloud but also because even if you told someone, they wouldn't believe you. 

I live a life of lies. The only person who knows everything is Director Carter. My mom doesn't even know that I'm one of the most lethal people in the world. My dad can't fully comprehend that I'm smarter than his haughty-taughty-I-teach-quantum-mechanics degree. The thing is they can't know, for their safety. I have to move out when I'm 18, not because I'm getting kicked out but because I need to protect my parents. If people were to find out about me they'll hit me where it still hurts. Living like this is hard but I don't exist, as far as the world is concerned I'm just a super genius, and even then only a relatively small group of people know that.

Director Carter says writing will help with everything. With the missions, the guilt, the pressure, the fear. But can writing help me save myself? The person I'm becoming I love, but there are parts of her that I don't know if I can accept. Having the ability to take someone's life is very different from actually having to make a persons heart stop. And I think the most terrifying thing about that is that it's part of my job. I can make someone's heart stop, I can make their blood run cold, I can make the light in their eyes disappear, I can tear them from this earth, and that is my job.