The other world 2

Part Four

Felix's pov
My phone ringing sound woke me up,  my head hurts what time is it?
I took my phone off the nightstand, it is 3 am why is he calling me now?
"hello"I said trying not to burst on the boy, they knows I don't like it when they wake me up.
'lixie' han said from the other side, he sounds drunk.
"han are you okay?" I asked getting up rubbing my eyes.
"who me....i am totally fine "he said giggling.
"han did you drink?"I asked.
"nope, I did not...i am a surgeon after all...i have work tomorrow...ops I mean in 5 hours"he said laughing.
"are you home?" I said getting up completely from the bed, he does not sound okay.
"I don't know maybe...wait yes I am, that's my couch" he said.
"I am coming there..."
"have you ever wondered why life is not fair Felix? You have been in love with hyunjin since we were kids and you did not get him and you will never will...i liked you but you rejected my love...and then I went and fell for a man that I know that I will never have"he said he sounded serious and kind of hurt, I kept the call on as I ran toward my car driving to his house."even my fucking job, they had it planned for me...of course han jisung will become a doctor he is the only son of the hans....tell me lix why didn't my parents have another kid...why did it have to be me"he yelled

"hanie, calm...."
"I don't want to live like this anymore felix....i tried for 6 months to stay strong...no for my whole life to stay strong...i am just tired" he said my eyes widened at his words." the sky is beautiful at this time"he added.
"han, are you on your balcony? Get inside" I said panicking...he is drunk what if he fell.
"nope, do you think if I jump I will be able to fly?" he asked.
2 more minutes and I reach him, I speed up as fast as I could not caring about the terrific rules there is almost none on the road after all.
"han"I said when there was no sound coming from the other side.
"yes"he said making me sighed in relief, I parked my car running toward the apartment he lives on the top floor if he fall he is doomed.
"stay with me"I said inserting the door's code as fast as I could before ran toward the balcony.
I was about to tell but I was afraid that he may slip.
"han, could you look at me? I am behind you....just take it easy"I said making the boy look.
"lixie, you came...i missed you"he said, he was sitting on the edge of the roof my breath hitched when he stood up.
"be careful"I said taking a step forward.
"don't"he said shaking his head.

"I won't just come back here"I said looking at his food they were not stable.
"why because if slip I will die"he said"don't you think I deserve it though"he added titling his head
"han....i...."
"do you know what I did?" he said tears starting streaming down his face" I almost got Hyunjin killed"he added.
"do you want to know what how?...i bet you will hate me too when you find out"he said again.
"hanie, I would never..."
"you will... believe me you will...i destroyed our friends' life because I was too selfish....i should have know that since they got married I won't have him...i tried to move on but all I did is think about him...i am in love with him....and I want him to myself felix...it is sick but I want him...i want minho"he said shocking me"I slept with minho hyung, and hyunjin saw us...that's how he got into an accident"he added making me look down.
"I broke his trust, slept with his husband, stole 6 months from his life....damn it I almost got him killed...how...how can I forgive myself tell me...and even worse he does not remember anything and me...as the idiot that I am I told minho hyung to keep it that way I told him to hid it from him...Felix...i feel so disgust of the person I have become....minho hates me and refuses to talk to me...hyunjin will remember and hate me too...when the rest find out they....they will leave  me...i will stay alone...i..."he added I felt tears running down my face.

"love...it is supposed to be beautiful....joyful, but all it brought me is pain here and here"he said hitting his head and then head."you are silent, I told you, you will hate me....wait I will make you have me more do you think after all this I learned from my mistakes, no....i am still fucking in love with him"he said taking a step forward toward the edge.
"do you hear me....i am in love with lee minho"he yelled looking to the sky, I took my chance that he wasn't looking and run pulling him by his waist making us both fall on the ground.
"let go of me...."he said fighting into my hold but I did not let him move, my grip around him just tightened back hugging him."damn it felix... just let me go"he added
"I am not letting you....i will never let go of you hanie not matter what"I said making him relax before he started sobbing.
"I hate myself....make it stop please"he said, I slowly let go of him turning him to face me.
"we will get through this together hanie, you got me...i will never leave your side"I said caressing his cheek.
"you....you won't " he hiccuped.
"not in a million years"I said pecking bus forehead" I will help you get over him, I will help you get better you got me hanie...i will help you as much as I could"I added.
His lips turned into a smile before he leaned in kissing my lips, I froze at what he did but I did not pull back I know he is too drunk to know or remember what he did" thank you lix...thank you...i love you"he said burying his head into my neck.