I want you (completed)

11

Nathaniel was born ten weeks before his due date.

I had tried countless times to reach Jax but it always go to his voicemail.

I had called one of the other guys and got nothing.

when I called Gemma she rushed over and took me to the hospital.

when I got to the hospital they was quick to take me to or and perform a c-section.

after I got to kiss and tell Nathaniel that I loved him they rushed him off.

after I was stiched up and put in a private room Jax showed up.

"where is he?" he asked

"why do you care you? didn't even answer your phone when I called you" I say

"I was handling club matter" he says

"yea well we almost lost our son." I say

"meaning what?" he asked

I dotn say anymore to him just sit there. which he didn't like.

"Meaning what amorisa ?" asked

"meaning he's got the damn teller flaw and had a tear in his abdomen they hardly gave me a chance to kiss him and say I love you before they rushed him off." I snapped.

he drops down into the chair raking his fingers though his hair.

I heard a knock making me look over towards the door where I seen Tara walking in.

"of fuck fucking sake" I say

"I'm here to give update on Abel" she says

"his name is Natheirl you helf brain shit face" I replied

I pressed the nurses button and waited.

"yes?" a nurse asked coming in to the room.

"I want the head doctor that performed surgery on my son. and I want this pathetic excuse of one to be taken off my sons care. she's so fucking ignorant she doesn't know her ass from a whole in the fucking ground" I say

the nurse nodded before she left.

"you get your fucking ass out of my hospital room and never fucking come around me,my husband or child again" I say pointing at Tara.

she looked at me with fear before she fucked off.

When the main doctor that took care of nathaiel came in he told us all of what had happened and then proceeded to tell me that Natheiel was to stay in a incubator till he reaches a certain require meant since he was born way to early.

"may I see him?" I asked

"of course I'll get the nurse to come and wheel you to the room." he says

"thank you" I say

when he walks out I watch Jax get up and got to walk out.

"you leave don't fucking come back Jax. and I fucking mean it" I tell him

"he's not gonna make it" he says

"are you deaf. the doctor said he pulled through both surgires and he's doing great. he's only got to grow more and keep up with doing great" I say

"he'll be like Tommy" he says

"as I said Jackson you walk out that door don't come back here or home. you will not be welcomed" I say

he went and sat back down.

"you think you're the only one who is scared?" I asked

He shook his head

"I was fucking petrified thinking the damn worse when I was bleeding. I was a fucking mess trying to reach you and some of the guys but not one of you fucking answered. I had to call Gemma to come and get me. I didn't make it to a room to change into a gown. I was rushed to prep where they changed me into a gown then I was rushed to the or. the whole fucking time they was cutting me open I was crying and wishing you were there as well as praying my son doesn't die." I tell him

"I'm sorry" he says

I wiped the tears from my eyes.

"I was so damn scared" I sob.

 he gets up comes over and hugs me to him as I start crying again.