GENESIS OF A SUGAR DADDY

I/ROSES ARE RED ,VIOLETS ARE BLUE,A SUGAR DADDY NEVER HOPED TO BE WHO HE IS.

                                                
Have you ever had a dream which later turn to be real?
It has not been the case for me and I've never meant to be who I am today and if so, would they reject me because of that? I'm even sure some of them are doing things worse than mine. Could they only take the time to understand or to think about this situation?
The last night I did the same nightmare and this situation is freaking me out. In this dream I had a wife; a beautiful one though, and two wonderful children, two girls as beautiful as their mother.
She seemed to love me genuinely, her smile was real and her eyes were shining as soon as she was about to look at me. As it was the same dream, the scenario was the same, just as I'm explaining next:
Coming from my job, they were all  playing  in the back yard of what could be called our house, my kids would run toward me and while running they tried to see whose was quicker. Were they twins?
I didn't pay enough attention to notice that, then my wife would come toward me, walking with the grace and magnificent of a queen, staring at me, for a while the world seems to disappear, all things surrounded me would shut off and the only one occupying my mind at this moment was this nice creature coming from another world, walking toward me. Who told angels only live in paradise? Mine was here in front of me   as in a dream and in fact it was a dream.
Unfortunately the closer she was to me and the less I was able to distinguish her face. Then from all a sudden I woke up, always at this moment not before and I'll never know what will be next perhaps.
Now in this cell, each night seems to be the hell, my mind, my body and my spirit are all bound to this dream. Could someone help me? Or even try to understand what I want to say?
Nothing to do, nothing to say, I am a monster and nothing less for them.
Is this day was my last day of freedom? NO, I can't believe that, I can't even think of that
When they caught me in this hotel with this girl they didn't even give an inch on me, they called me on all the names, they humiliated me and make me feel as I am nothing.
I'm just waiting for my sentence... Here, reduced to dust I'm waiting.
But I have still one question in my mind, do they know WHO I AM AND HOW ALL THIS STARTED? 
I am not a monster, don't look at me like this, some people are doing things worse than what I innocently did, and after all they were consentient. "