Mistakes

The Need

-Michael

I couldn't  help but feel like an asshole, but I needed this. We needed this.

And all I could think about was her crying, and how Luke would react if he found out.

And he was going to find out real soon. I parked in front of Luke's house, contemplating on how I was gonna break the news.

I took a deep breathe and got out the car.

Luke needed to hear this as much as anyone else.

I knocked on his door. 

I waited and he answered, and I looked up to only see Rebecca clinged to his side.

 I looked at him and her and my heart just began to hurt even more...

"Hey man, whats up?" He gleamed.

"Nothing just uhm. Wanted to let you know that Cal and you are going into the studio tomorrow."

"Thanks M."

"Well uh i have to go." I mumbled and left  in a hurry.

 I got inside my car and and drove to my house.

 I felt a panic attack coming on and all i wanted to do is lay down. My legs felt weak and and my chest tighten along with my heart.

I finally arrived home, and all I could manage to do is walk to the town and collaspe. 

I gave up one of the few things that made me happy. But it was all for a reason.

She was the only reason why i felt happy when we were off the road and not touring.

After hours of laying in the grass and the bugs living there attacking my face I managed to get up and go to my room.

I missed her already.

I got up and grabbed my notebook and pen and began to write.