My Journey To Freedom (Hyakkimaru X Reader)

Chapter 16

Previously on Chapter 15

Even though I don't know if Hyakkimaru is okay after that explosion, my heart still beats for him. And if he survived, it didn't make me feel any better. In fact, it makes me feel horrible, knowing these two brothers would fight because of me.

-What Can I Do?-

Y/N P.O.V

I keep looking after Tahomaru, despite being wary about him. Even though this marriage wasn't my choice, I'm still his wife and it's my job to look after him. So here I am... feeding him some food. I have to feed him or he'd refuse to eat.

I grab a napkin and gently wipe the food that is smeared on his lips. I can feel his intense gaze on me, watching my action. I lower my hand and avoid eye-contact with him. I flinch when I feel a hand under my chin.

"Even though you're scared of me... you still look after me. Why?" He asked, staring into my eyes with his one eye. I stare at the other eye that is blinded when he was fighting against Hyakkimaru. I bit my lips and turns my gaze away.

"You're my husband... even if it's not by choice. It's my job to look after you" I said, in a hushed voice. But loud enough for him to hear. I hear a soft hum coming from him.

"Why can't you just say that you care for me? Just tell me you do... even if it's a lie. Give me something to hold on to" he said. I pull my chin away from his grip and scoots away from him.

"I can't lie about such things, Tahomaru. I don't want to toy around with your feelings. So I can't say I care about you even if it's a lie. I'm sorry" I said, lowering my head as a sign of apology. I hear a sigh coming from him and a gentle pat on my head.

"You're truly a good person, Y/N. That's one of the many reasons why I fell for you. I can only hope that you'd feel something for me too..." he said. I bit my lips as I turn to look at him. He stares at me with a sad expression. I can see the longing in his good eye.

"You're done with your breakfast... so please excuse me" I said. I scoot back and move to stand up. I turn around my body around. I turn to look at him over my shoulder. "I'll come again to bring your lunch later. Until then... please rest well, Tahomaru..." I said. With that being said, I walk away without saying anything.

I slide the door close and let out a soft sigh. I'm starting to notice something after looking after Tahomaru for a while ever since he got sick. I notice that I start to feel more... comfortable.

It's like I don't feel too scared when he's near me anymore or when he's touching my face or giving my head a gentle pat. It's kind of troubling me because now my feelings is all jumbled up, and I'm getting confused of what I truly felt for Tahomaru. I just shake my head, as I finally walks away after lingering in front of Tahomaru's room.

***

I'm currently carrying a tray filled with various foods for Tahomaru's lunch. I try my best to steady it with one hand as I slide the door open with the other. Tahomaru is sitting on the futon, staring outside the window.

"Tahomaru... I've brought your lunch" I said, placing the tray down on the ground. He turns to look at me and smile at the sight of me. "Do you want to eat yourself or do you still want me to feed you?" I asked.

"Can you?" He asked. I just nod my head without a word. I pick up the plate and scoot closer to him. I slowly scoop up some of the food and feed it to him. He just eat them silently. But I can see the happiness radiating from him. It somehow warmed my heart.

"Is there something on my face? Are you... looking at my bad eye?" He asked. I blink my eyes in surprise. I didn't even realize that I've been staring at Tahomaru. I quickly shake my head at his question.

"N-No... you... don't have to feel upset about your eye for so long, Tahomaru. Besides... you're not the only one who's half-blind" I said. He stares at me in confusion. I bit my lips as I place the plate down. "I hope this won't make you feel sick or something, but..." I said. I reach up and take out my fake eye. I make sure to close my eye so he won't see into my skull.

Tahomaru's good eye widened at the sight. I just smile at him and put them back on. "You know how both of my parents acted towards me, right?" I said. He just nods his head.

"One day my mother was so angry and threw a vase at me. I dodged it which caused it to hit the wall. A broken shard bounced back towards me and hits my eye. I've been half-blind since then. That's why I never judged your flaw, Tahomamu. Because I'm no different than you..." I said. He blink his good eye, before smiling at me.

"Thank you, Y/N... that made me feel better" he said. I just smile softly at him. I continue to feed him until he finishes all the food. I gently wipe the oil from the food from his lips.

"You should rest some more after taking your medicine" I said. I hand him the medicine the doctor have made. He drinks the medicine and hands the empty cup to me. I take it from him.

I turn to him and help him lay down. I pull the blanket up to his chest. "I'll take my leave now..." I said. I feel his hand gently grabs mine before I could leave. I turn my head to look at him.

"Can't you stay with me? Please... just this once" he said. I let out a sigh and move the blanket. I place myself next to him, turning around so my back is facing him. I feel a pair of arms snaking around my waist. But instead of a sense of fear like I normally felt. I feel... comfortable.

"Thank you, Y/N..." he whispered softly as he place his head on the crook of my neck. I feel his breathing evened out, letting me know that he have fallen asleep. His body is relaxed as he held me gently against him. I glance at Tahomaru without moving my body.

I know that I'm still in love with Hyakkimaru... but now, I can't help but realize that I've started to develop love for Tahomaru as well. I know it's wrong to love two person at once, because that would mean I'm toying around with their feelings. That's why it made me feel like I'm the worst person alive. But I can't control my emotions. So...

what can I do?

*to be continued*